i'm watchin' you

I, officially say, that my tagboard and my cbox has gone bonkers. Way, way bonkers. I have no idea what's going on but i'm sure i've done enough HTML adjusting to know that my tagboard and my cbox (currently in use) has gone WONKED. I've changed my blog skin thrice - second attempt failed miserably. Thank God this lovely black one is gorgeous.

Anyways, if you can't tag, don't fret. Try clicking twice or just leave the blog. It might appear soon so... TAG! There's no other reason for you peeps, reading this post, to not TAG. It is imperative of you all to tag. I want my cbox to be loaded with peeps talking to me! =) Hehe.

Oh and forgive me for not updating recently. Because i had some school stuffs to do. Oh and also, the lazy bug bit on me so i've gone all lazy and tired of blogging. FOR THE MOMENT! =) Well, for starters, this week's pretty loaded with future assignments, presentations and papers to deal with in school. I ain't complaining but it seems i've finally felt that i am officially a Poly Student. HAHA. Can you believe it? I didn't know why it took me sooo long to realise my standings in the education system. Although i admit, at some point, i wish i was... somewhere else *coughHOMEcough*. LOL. Wow, i'm getting lamer.

Oh well, might update soon. I might try and deal with tagboard problems so be patient with me! =)

Loves~!

Lana

Beware of thy eville... Mwahaha!

What a day it was today. Such an... emotional whirlwind for me! I feel happy one second and in the next i'd be on the verge of a huge meltdown. I'm serious. But i'm not gonna go into the gory details of my emotions! Instead, i'm gonna tell you the silly happenings with my classmates and lovely Tassha. =) Hehe.

Morning was alright i guess. Aside the getting-caught-talking-too-much with Tassha, i had fun. I heard stories on her side, she heard stories on mine, we shared little details about what we wanna do with our outrageous attitudes - lol - and even gawked at each other about a certain topic involving a certain couple. Hmm... ANYWAYS, after that, we head off to KFC... well, a little too early though. LOL. We ate there, very fulfilling really. I enjoyed my meal, so did the rest. Terence was the one surprising me. He bought Zinger, drink... and a LARGE mashed potato. Can you believe it? This man uh boy uh... right. Well, anyways, he has muscles for God's sakes. MUSCLES! And his diet, is unbelievable! I bet he has the highest metabolism among all of us. To be able to maintain such a hot bod, i'm beginning to turn green with envy! LOL. Stop laughing Tassha. =p

After brunch, we head off to TM to play some arcade suggested by an utterly bouncy little one named Jesse. She loved going to the arcade but no doubt, all of us too. Well, except for Tassha who went... somewhere to get... something. A nose stud i think. LOL. Yeah, a nose stud. Then we all got separated but i met up with Tassha to company her for a few minutes. Halfway to the interchange, it started pouring very heavily and i left her - since she insists - to meet up with the rest. Somehow, Nigel called her and she said she dont wanna go lecture. I was soooo sad! Haha! But nemind, still had the other gurls around to company me.

Then after maths lecture, met up with her again for OOP. She seemed pissed about something but i didn't wanna pester her and i left her alone for a few minutes while she copied notes. After a while, i broke the terrible silence and she started smiling and laughing again. Finally, a burden has left ma poor lil' shoulders. LOL. Then it was the dreaded maths tutorial where we have our tests returned. Unfortunately for me, though no surprise, i received a mere 9/30 for my test. Darn, i should've studied when i had the chance. Oh well.

Ah! During this time, i told Tassha this.

Lana: I was listening on the radio, 91.3, with *so-so* & *so-so* saying there was this lady listener who text them, asking "Is it illegal to wear a bikini top and shorts while driving around Singapore?"
Tassha: *gasps* And then?
Lana: *giggles* Of course, men started replying to their questions, and without releasing names only the last four numbers of their cellphones, the DJs started reading their texts. And they saved the best for last. "It's a criminal conduct for someone to bring in WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION" *roars with laughter*
Tassha: *shuts eyes, hands on the mouth, laughs hard* OMG!
Lana: I KNOW! Haha! But the best part was that the DJs asked the lady listeners instead. Asking "What do you think about men, at least once in their lifetime, wearing Borat's famous green Speedos in his movie?"
Tassha: EWW!
Lana: I know! Then they replied, but i only heard the last one. "It's fine of course, unless they have MOOBS".
Tassha: *laughs... harder*
Lana: Then one of the DJ asked the other DJ "What's MOOBS?" Then the other DJ replied, "MAN BOOBS!" *laughs loud*
Tassha: *laughs even louder*
Lana: I am sooo gonna blog this!
Tassha: Yes, yes! BLOG!!

Haha. That's what happened. Funny huh? LOL. It's gruesome to even imagine ANYONE wearing that ugly neon-green Speedos that only covers the nipples and crotch - i don't even wanna imagine what the back would look like. GROSS!!!! HAHA! Then we had Web App which is just amazing! We had such a ball that i even coughed after a hard-earned laugh. Me and Tassha wanted to take piccys but Frederick was there with us so she forced him to join us. In utter defeat, he posed. This was what happened.

The formal pic. A little too small though.



The beginning of something chaotic... and ugly. XD



Wait for it... There's more. XD



AHAHAHHAHAHHAH! Frederick! AHAHAHHAHA!



The End. =)

Cool right? Poor Frederick. His face is on the line now, to have his picture taken out of his will, unable to DELETE the pictures he loathes. Oh, Frederick, i feel you.... NOT! AHAHAHHAHA! *coughs* OK, this evil thang, has gotta stop. LOL.

During Web App, nearing towards the end... Well, i'm not gonna go into the details but all i can say is that it's alright now, nothing's changed, nothing happened. =)

Well, here i end! Oh, and do click my Profile and check out my Flickr piccys! They're nice. =) Tag too! That means you too, Tassha, Nigel, Lina, Fattasha, DIL! =) Me watch you! Yes, yes!

XOXO

Lana

Ba-da-dum-dum-dum

my goodness what a sucker i have been? again, i have left my dear blog to rot, including my rabid readers gaping at the un-updated virtual space called BLOG. Uh, did i make sense? Ah, who cares? Haha. Anyways, i'm out of excuses as to why i didn't update what happened past few days. To be honest, aside the craziness yours-truly has spread to the world, nothing outstanding popped into my head that's worth posting so i didn't post unless it's worth it. LOL. Not that my life isn't popping anything interesting now and then.

Anyways, i chatted with DiL, and to be utterly honest, i've never chatted with her so intimately before. Intimate as in we share our thoughts and say things out of insecurity. I'm glad she finally talked to me. I wanna be there for her and for her to be talking to me, i can see that i helped her somehow. It may not be much but i can proudly say that i have helped. Yes! Oh and right now, it may not mean much to y'all but i'm giving my soul a behaviour adjustment. I may have said this a gazillion times but right now i'm gonna make sure it happens. It'll happen a little at a time. I ain't rushing myself. =) Oh, you'll just have to watch and see huh? Hehe.

I have a project due Tuesday, almost like a Show-And-Tell kind of thing. Can't use Powerpoint slides with is just a huge bummer. Conveniently, yet undoubtedly unfortunate, my Show-And-Tell is about Honda Motor Company's ASIMO, a 130cm tall humanoid robot. I know. Sucks real bad. Haha.

Alrighty. That's all i guess. Enjoy your Sunday!

xoxo

Lana

The truth

I can't think properly now... Not for a single minute. Nothing's registering in my mind, except the fact that he's leaving. He's leaving for work and i can't do a single thing. I can't say what i can to stop him. I can't say what i want to make him hold me and never let me go. I can't say... whatever it is i wanted to say ever since he broke the news to me. Other than the tears, the real, physical experience of heartache, i can only utter these words...

"Dont go,"

All i can say is "dont go, dont go,". I can't cry enough to make him get the hint, to understand that i'm only asking one small favour: and that is to hold me when it is time to go. And what's his answer?

"I can't."

It's hard enough that he's going and now he's adding more oil to the fire. And he still keeps on saying no, no, no like as if he's long decided and that it's impossible its almost close to suicidal. I dont understand... Why not? Just because his parents will be around us, he doesn't want to hug me. Why not? I'm sure they'd understand right? Right? I do hope so... I really do because i won't be seeing him for another 5 months. Then the next time he comes back, he's going to be staying for a month, then goes back for another 5 months. I bet he won't wanna go out of his house during that one month's rest. I bet...

I really don't know what else to do now... Everytime i hear myself saying in my head, "don't go," i can hear myself crying but i couldn't see me. I hear my voice, i hear my cries, but i couldn't see... I don't know... I told him, on the phone half an hour ago the very thing i imagined and what does he do? He changes the subject about his little sister, which has no relation to my problem whatsoever. And he can still ask "where got change subject?" Why the hell is he avoiding the obvious? Why in heaven's name is he being that proud man i disliked? I hate proud men, thinking that pride is everything and being a little too soft makes your reputation turn to dust. Such prejudice. Pfft!

Anyways... I wanted to talk to someone but now that i've typed it in here, there's no taking back what i just said. Only one person knows and i know you'd be reading and you'll know its you... =) I'm glad i told you. I'm not ready to tell my other gurlfrenz yet, but i'm glad i told one friend. I really need some support right now. Some good advice to how i'm going to handle the pain. My parents knows what's going on but i'm not going to confide with them just yet. I'll definitely break down and cry a river even before i could tell them what was wrong with me. Especially if it was to my mother. She's such a person to me that at the sight of her, when i'm in an unstable state of mind, i see her eyes and i can crack in a second, be falling on my knees the next, and wail in pain on her thigh. It happened before and until now, i can cry the same way, feel the same pain, and say the same words.

What i'm trying to say is that... I'm trying my best to work things out with my head, and to also juggle with school and think clearly so as to avoid breaking down and cry blood instead of salty tears. I support him, his choices, his soul, his principles. But this one thing, one simple favour i ask of him, and he says no. I wanted to ask him, if he loved me so... he'd hug me, right? I couldn't ask him... because i wasn't prepared enough, not strong enough to hear his response. I didn't want to cry during the phone conversation because i told myself to be strong. But everytime he keeps saying no, my heart cracks piece by piece. And it's not a little piece, it's like a whole chunk of it. And i can even hear it cracking. Oh dont laugh, i'm being serious! I'm not being too emotional, i'm being honest. Undoubtedly honest. I heard every aching heartbeat my heart made and i swear, i heard it cracking. I kept my sobs until the second we hung up and when we did, while i sat on the sofa and stared into nothing, tears just formed and they just fell. I didn't even bother to stop them because there's no point. I don't want to lie to myself and pretend that i am tough because i'm not. Clearly... i'm not.

Gosh, forgive me for being this way. I really am sorry but i don't regret posting this. You guys, those blog-hopping or are my friends reading this, do forgive me k? I'll try not to pour pain into a post again. =)

Love,

Lana

Ahh... Cheesy

Disney's Anastacia - At the beginning - Donna Lewis and Richard Marx

We were strangers starting out on our journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
When I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start

(chorus)
And Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever
A Wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there whenthe storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

(chorus)

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
I know that my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

(chorus)

In the end I wanna be standing at the beginning with you

white Monday

My God, where can i start with today? Argh! But all in all, i was sure i had loads of fun i couldn't even think where it really started or ended. OK, maybe i was the only one who thought i had loads of fun but that's besides the point! Fact of the matter is, i was crazy, silly and downright happy. For some unknown reason, today, Monday, wasn't bluey as i thought.

It all started with NetFund test which, i can proudly say, that i'm not confident in passing with flying colours. Even if it was 10 marks worth, i take tests seriously and if i fail one, that'd be the utter end for me. Anyways, after finishing the test, lo and behold Tassha tells me she met up with her DJ at Md Sultan road. Apparently she gotten herself lost and couldn't tell two streets from each other. I don't blame you really because i myself suck at reading maps. Although i perfectly score at reading signs and memorising roads. LOL. Surprisingly, she was glowing. Yes, you read it right. GLOWING. She was glowing from the inside out i couldn't help but be happy for her. Finally, someone she can turn to when in need of some untainted lurvin'. =) After that we had our practical and headed out to have something to eat. I ate burger, of course. Then we went to lecture which was... well, OK i guess. LOL. Then lunch break where i slept, arms crossed, face on my bag. Was sooo sleepy. Other than the tiredness, i felt bad and painful for Tassha because she had to sit through some guy's stories about his nights out at clubs... ya-da ya-da ya-da. All the same stories, all the same people, all the wrong timing. -.-

Nigel serving as an iPod's resting place

Then was E-Maths lecture which was damn crazy. Me, Tassha and Nigel sat behind Frederick aka Garbage (seriously), Ivan aka Ivan, and Terence aka Terence. We were soooo slack just now that i joined in and gotten slack too. I played with Tassha's lovely choc-brown hair while she played with Ivan's. Nigel was at one end sleeping his illness away (aww, poor baby). And Garbage was busy clawing into our hearts and insulting as hard as he could. Why? Because he was darn bored. Sheesh that boy. After that was OOP Lecture and it was the most funniest time in that whole Monday. Me and Tassha sat together and i pulled up my table. It brushed Tassha's arm and i said Sorry, then somehow came this.

Lana: Ooh, i brushed your arm... *dreamy voice*
Tassha: Ooh, my arm's brushed... *trails hand up her arm and purrs*

After that we roared with laughter. It was the most randomest, most perfect moment ever! Ah! Who could've acted this out if not us? Right, Tassha? Hehe. And as the laughter died down and we started getting serious - only for a while, she leaned forward and i leant back. Then somehow, with perfect timing, we did the opposite of each other.

Tassha: front > backward
Lana: backward > front

It was perfect timing i tell you! Then i looked at her, she looked at me and burst out laughing again, snorting and giggling. So out of breath! Haha! It was sooo random! Then she said that she was trying to get her lollies out. She took out two and gave one to me and we peeled the plastic. Then we tucked them on some nooks of our chairs and started sucking them down like babies with their... uh, what was that again? LOL. Anyways, uhh... OK, i kindda lost track of the silliness that came afterward but trust me, i was all-out crazy and silly and Tassha had to suffer through the agony of watching me make a fool of my own self. LOL.

Then when it came down to WebApp, ten minutes before end of lesson, i asked Tassha to accompany me to the loo and after i was done with my nature's call, i took off my Garnet ring and handed it to her while i washed my hands with soap. Then we strolled out, headed back to class and parted ways. I was busy talking to Ming Sheng and fingering my left hand when i realised something was missing on my middle finger. I rubbed the bare skin again and something knocked me in the head, along with my heart stopping for a second. I spoke across heads at Tassha, with eyes wide like saucers and asked her...

Lana: Where's my ring?
Tassha: *eyes wide as mine* ... I thought i gave it to you...?

My heart totally stopped and i was thinking, "Oh my God, let it still be there! Let it still be there! I will cry blood if the ring my mother bought for me is kidnapped by some mucky-handded creature!!!" I and Tassha ran out of class, down the hallway, past a group of confused chinese boys and slipped back into the loo.

Lana: ... *sees the ring propped nicely above the sinks* ... *falls to her knees and faints*
Tassha: Lana! Are you alright? Did you fall?? *helps her up*
Lana: omg... i thought it was lost. my heart stopped!
Tassha: I'm so sorry!!!

It wasn't her fault larh... My absent-mindedness got us both running and scared shitless. Phew... Thank God! Then after that we finished school and i met up bf to hitch a ride home with him. He called earlier about his older sister wanting to borrow my laptop for a presentation she has. Her Fujitsu laptop was too slow for her and she needs a faster one. I guess bf told her about my laptop, that's how she came about asking me a favour. First one in my entire life, someone outside my family but blood-related to the man i love, asking me a favour. How cool is that? LOL. Anyways, i came back down to give him the bag full of necessities, including the laptop and told her the important places to plug the wires in. I felt proud and loved. Ahhh...



Heh. A glimpse of yours truly, who else? Alrighty, i'm off. I've done my proposal form for Japanese Lecture related to my project due next week. There are more tests coming up during this week and a presentation to be handed up this thurs. Praytell we get through this smoothly. I hope!

Much love~!

Lana

Witness the emo!

OK, forgive me, my worshipping readers for i have deceived you. I said i would update but i didn't and thus, forgive your pathetic blogger for not doing her job. Gomen nasai. [Forgotten the word Sorry in French] I'm sorry......

OH WELL! Lets do a quick re-run for the past three days - yes, from thurs until tonight. Honestly, i've gotten a blogger's block due to my loyalty for Hana Yori Dango 2: Returns. A Japanese dorama and a remake of the manga of the same title. But enough of my geekiness and let's get back to my sanity. On thursday, i was alone. A-L-O-N-E. Why? Well, i ain't blaming anybody because Tassha had a reason she wasn't able to come to school. She text'd me that morning that she couldn't come and she had MC to support her. I was fine with that arrangement because the day before, Wednesday, i witnessed her irritated expressions of having the flu. She was in a mess and i was sooo worried. I followed her to the clinic and waited until Mom called about our lunch date. I really felt bad leaving her like that but she was fine. After that i didn't hear anything from her until yesterday. But that's another story.

Anyways, on Thursday, besides being lonely, i tagged around with my class. Mostly with Nigel and Ming Sheng. They were nice to me eventhough i bugged them a whole lot, thank God. They were my target for my sillyness so... LOL. We had maths then PSPS - Problem Solving and blah-blah where we were told to make a presentation by next thursday on a new problem and solve it with two different methods. One Convergent method which is called ALoU and the other one, a Divergent method called SCAMPER. I've yet to do research on what does things are. Anyways, after that we had OOP which was confusing and stressful but nonetheless i pulled through pretty nicely. Terence and Frederick was crowding around me and Ming Sheng, asking what to type in next in our Java project. I wasn't as good but i tried my best. I saved the docs so Tassha could catch up. The lab was graded. Sheesh. After that i had Japanese Lecture. Which was pretty interesting since i learnt a dialect in Japanese called Kaiban. I think. LOL.

Friday was the dreaded CCN day which was what everyone - in the whole campus of course - anticipated. When i reached school that morning, all were sober and calm and people were walking around carrying bags and tables to their respective places. I was with Tassha since she came early - almost every Friday somehow - and we went to canteen to grab something to eat for the day. Nigel came in alittle later to do the same. We waited for the other class rep, Kelly, to meet us for packing our stuffs - one jelly, two lollies, one sweet and biscuit/chocolate. We tied them, counted them and stuffed them into a box. We did our simple banners on Mahjong paper, cleaned our work area and headed upstairs to our designated area. Once we stepped out of the lift, everyone crowded the little walkway and all you can see were stalls and stalls full of whatnots. From the simplest to the most exquisite. The nicest things like Chocolate Fonduu to biscuits by the grams. Then we setted up our stalls and waited for people to grab one and pay. Of course, none bought one but just glanced and walked away. Because of that, lovely Nigel and Kelly's comrades grabbed a handful and walked around selling it to their friends instead. Altogether there were, if i'm not mistaken, 33 packets. So multiply that by 2, we collected $66 worth. But it was all thanks to Kelly who gave us the idea of selling this so i really owe our success to her. I felt bad that her idea of selling lovely accessories didn't go so well and i really wanted to help. But i didn't know how, so i just stood around and accompanied her. Tassha was walking around looking for a seat because she wasn't looking very well. Nigel went home at 2 while some of my class hang around at the back. CCN day was bustling with people, it seemed hard to walk through! But i was glad i sold everything. Finally, my life isn't as stressed. LOL.

Then today. Hmm... Met up with bf to talk and we ate chips, drank juices and watched kids hide and seek under blocks. After that we parted ways and i went home to eat dinner. My dad was going overseas again, but this time to Australia for his regular Macdonald's conference thingy. It's scheduled to be three times a year so this is the last one for this year. I drove all of us to the airport and we walked around. The whole time it seemed like i was in my own world. For a reason i dont wish to disclose, i felt terrible nostalgic when i stepped in here. Usually i wouldn't be this down about going to the airport, but somehow, tonight i actually was. We headed to T1 to grab some burger king and i had Hershey's(sp?) Pie and unfortunately, i got a sugar-high. LOL. I was laughing at everything and my parents shook heads at me. But it was nice to laugh at a place like this, i needed some laughter to get things out of my mind. I've been kindda depressed lately and i dont like it. Eventhough it's quiet and nobody could bother me, it wasn't unfair to people i accidentally ill-treated to. I didn't mean to! Sorry.

So, right now, after i've finished watched the uber-emotional Japanese dorama, i swear to you i've gotten more emotional. It's such a..... OK, i'll leave this geeky part of me to the other blog. Haha. Right now i'm listening to one of their openings and i can just clearly picture the vid. It's a very bittersweet song, really. Of course, it's in Japanese.

Well, here's the post you've been waiting for Tassha. LOL! =)

Much love~!

Lana

HOT stuffs, Powerpuffs, get Caught

Right... i said yesterday that i would update - well, to Tassha that is - but i didnt. Wanna know why? I ended up surfin' the web for Mizushima Hiro: the most hottest HOT STUFF i've ever seen in my life. Well, compared to Brad Pitt, i'd take Mizushima Hiro. But it's just me that i have such exquisite taste *coughcough*. Although, Brad Pitt ain't a bad choice to star in every girl and woman's fantasy right? =) I'll talk about Mizushima Hiro on my other blog, where anime belongs. This is for my life stories so... let's push aside the geeky part of me and get back to what happen yesterday.

After school, bored as always, i text'd my gurlfren - friend who is a gurl - and ask her out for a few hours of chit-chatting, no money involved. I even told her to persuade the other 1/3 of the galgroup to come as well. At around 4.30pm, i came and sat down at the meeting place and out comes my little half from two years back: Nurul. Loud and silly as she is, she's my other half in girl stories, tears and emotions. LOL. [Do not fret, Tassha. You're still my other half now =) ]

Anyways, after we sat down and hugged, air-kissed and grinned at each other, she shared stuffs about her life while i shared mine. It was alright i guessed. Most of the time i was gaping at her, shocked to the bone about the revelations i just realised. If she's yet to tell me, i wouldn't have known anything. At all. Period. OK, then throughout the talk, i was planning to sit and wait for the other Powerpuff to come. But Nurul, being more self-conscious than i am - seriously - ordered me to walk away so people could stop looking at us. What do i care? Few hours before, ironically, Mom talked to me about how judgemental i am about people looking at my way, my face or the way i dressed. I really dont mind as much as i thought but when i do mind, i'd be on the verge of screaming out profanities. Which isn't me at all. I told Nurul what my Mom told me and i admitted to her - i admit alot - that not everybody who looks are those i despised. I won't say who i particularly despise looking at me because that'd be insulting and wrong and cruel. So =x

So, after much persuasion by my little green Powerpuff, my blue powerpuff butt stood up from the seat and told her that we're heading off to TM to check out some books i've been wanting to grab off the shelves. She said it was fine, just walk. Then she text'd the other one and told her that we're hanging around TM and that she should meet us there. We saw a brand new ISETAN and lemme tell ya, besides the shrinking in square-metre, the whole place is brightly lit, an eye-opener and full of class i feel so low-class in it. Well not that bad to the point of feeling like i was in rags. LOL. There were gorgeous pumps, wedges, high-heels... Oh yeah, did i mention that none of the items i mentioned costs below $50? Yes, that part is true and cruel to mere mortals like us, craving for the very same items.

And since the indulgence was too great and it wasn't worth the risk of hating the fact that we are shamelessly broke, we headed up to TIMES the bookstore and checked out the books. Well, i did. Too bad they hadn't updated their shelves yet. My Rachel Gibson book: It Must Be Love, isn't there yet. Apparently, it wasn't her latest book. More likely known as a republished piece under the name Little Black Dress Books. Her latest book, however, is entitled: Not Another Bad Date. Its pleasantly, and perfectly, due in the month of May. A good trump card to get what i want without forking out a single cent. >=)

ANYWAYS, after flipping through pages of interesting, and expensive, books me and green Powerpuff waited outside for the other Puff to meet us. We yapped, yapped and yapped until finally she popped up from behind us with her little brother tagging along. We went up to the 4th floor, met Tassha's friend, Tauhid, and headed to the Open Plaza. Where, unfortunately, several groups of MALAY men and ladies hung around taking a drag from their ciggies. They didn't seem bothered by us entering a public territory here so neither were we. We sat down on a flight of stairs and yapped some more. Getting confused halfway about who is Mas and Zack. Uh...

And the clock struck 6.30pm and we had to go home. I bought Cheese Fries for lil' sis, crab nuggets for me and yam pie for Mom. Nurul bought Chicken Wrap and i swear, it's the most delicious thing besides Chicken Nuggets. Ah! Gotta grab some of those i tell ya! Then after that i head home, ate Mee Goreng and got on the comp to surf net, where, if you scroll up, i talked about Mizushima Hiro. Having such tunnel-vision for the HOT STUD, i Googled him and out comes other Wiki-pedia stuffs. Then Oguri Shun comes out and i watched his vids. And then Wiki profiled him and he actually acted out a series from another manga: Hana Yori Dango. Only thing is, he ain't cold-hearted or sober-like.

Alrighty, have to go if not get caught by the lecturer. XD

Ja ne!

Lana

Le F werd...

So what did happen today? Hmm... There was a 2 hour long NetFund tutorial where half the time i WAS paying attention... and the other half, all paid attention on Tassha telling me about her weekend. Which is pretty much entertaining if you ask me. She told me about how, when she isn't wearing anything pretty on that day, thousands of people would pass by her and see her in rags. Not in the literal way, i mean. =) She told me about the many types of people that she came across with: from the f-ugly (me no likes saying F), to the fakers, the shorties, the pretty little ones, and a man at the counter she suddenly decides to play around with. Wanna know what i mean? Well, here's the skinny.

She tells me of a bar with glass walls and a man standing by a counter counting money. She, somehow, decides to stand in the middle of the walkway and wait for him to look at her. Out of the blue she decides to do something so silly! Sheesh! XD But it was good to hear her going crazy like that. Anyways, her friend, Souher, comes up to her and tell her what the hell she was trying to do. Tassha, being Tassha, tells her that she just wanna stand and wait if he looks at her. But right when she talks to Souher, the man looks at her and she made a run for it, laughing her pretty arse off at herself. LOL! Salut, Natassha! Anyways, after that we had our lecture and almost half of the hall was empty. I mean really empty. Well, i dont blame the others 'cuz the lecturer just reads from the book and draws stuffs on her transparency. Bringing in no new material that would pull us in to her classes.

But anyways, after that we had our lunch and it was alright. Tassha wanted to have a go at Nigel's white PSP while I made a go at Ming Sheng's PINK PSP. Yep, his is PINK. I played his Bleach fighting game which is just out of this world! It's sooo much cooler than KOF. Although KOF have lots more fighting combos than Bleach but i ain't complainin'. Then we went to our math lecture and had pretty much a lotta fun. LOL! We were laughing so hard... Oh wait, that was me. XD. I was crazy at one point but can be sooo darn solemn and quiet the next. Weird... Then we had OOP which is just the bomb! We all teased Tassha and she went about flailing her hands saying F-here and F-there. LOL! Colourful.

Then came WebApp which is just as stressful but OK. I finally got my problem solved but, as usual, comes another problem that just added more wise hair into my conundrum of thinning black hair. Sigh. Oh well, there's still tomorrow. And talking about tomorrow, i had to go out with Kelly, another Social rep from another class - we're having a joint CCN stall this friday and she's the other half of the stall - to go bargain hunting and compare prices. The following day would be the buying-of-stuffs day.

Oh and DAD'S BACK!!!! YAY! Hehe. I'm sooo glad he's back. Lucky he comes home with a sheepish grin on his face. And there i was bouncing up to him yelling, "Where's the VIP? The guest, the guest!" And i briefly hugged him. He no hugger. LOL. Miss him, you know! Oh and my bf and I are alright. We let it go, kindda. Well, i gotta get some proper anger management, restructuring of my behaviour - that made sense? - and some other kind of therapy. Of course, i meant by a one-on-one talk with my brain and my heart. -.- I know. I've gone completely nuts but when else will i be able to realise the mistakes and make amends? I don't wanna hurt him anymore than i already have and keep on complaining that he's the one making me suffer. When in truth, i've been the cruel person here. Sighs. What a revelation. Sad, but it must be dealt with before something happens that i have no control over.

Uh... right. Well then! Ja ne~!

xoxo

Lana

One ring richer!

Another day, another trouble gone worst. Well, i won't babble and wail in pain here just because this is an online diary for me. I ain't like that so i'll just let it be brief and un-painful to read. This morning, Saturday, i woke up unsatisfied with the sleep i got - even if it was between 1am to 9.50am. Not enough to me, how many hours over 8, i do not care. When i have lack of sleep, i become one grouchy person you don't wanna mess with. Even if it was my boyfriend. Hmph. OK, so he called me way too long for me to contain my anger and i got pissed off. I realised i was angry but i couldn't properly recall what it was about. Uhh... Right. I guess i am in the wrong but really, when i said speak louder, he speaks softly. When i am clearly pissed off, he laughs at everything i say. I don't get him. Either he was laughing at me because i was being ridiculous, or laughing at me because i was being too cute to be angry. I hope, to save his life, it was the latter.

Then i was too pissed, i almost snapped at my sister. But i kept my cool as low as possible and it came out as a little spit - spoken, i meant. Anyways, bless her soul my Mom left it as that. She didn't question why i was fighting with him on the phone. Bless her soul again, she must've understood that i didn't want to talk about it anymore than she wanna ruin our day. God, i love her. And the funny thing is, i wasn't anywhere pissed at my Mom. I see her face and she talking to me, i talk to her like my boyfriend wasn't even talking to me on the phone. Cool huh? I like it that way. I don't wanna ruin her mood. She didn't deserve it. Me and Him ended the conversation - if you wanna call it that way - with a sour note, on my part but i didn't regret it. He said his part, i said mine and just hung up. Too damned pissed off. And now he's going all sour at me. Sheesh. I knew he'd never make a move until i do. I hate it when he does that. Whenever it was his fault, he leaves me alone until I text him. Like as if i have no dignity?? GRR!

Alright, alright. Forget about the fight and lemme tell you more about my day. I know you're bored but please, stay with me. *shakes, shakes you* We all walked down the long pathway towards Plaza Singapura and got our late lunch at LJS. It was a nice lunch and i filled myself with everything on my place. There wasn't even a little speck of batter left and i was happy. Finally, my plate was clean. After that my Mom wanted to check out a jewellery store with stocks brought in from Nepal. The shop's name is Kathmandoo. A wide range of cool stuffs: rings, bracelets, necklaces, pendants. All with stones like: Black Star, Lapis, Garnet, Amethyst, Turquoise, Onyx, Moon Stone. Very cool place with a very helpful salesperson named Anita. Very lovely lady. She was soooooo helpful with my depressed Mom - she couldn't get her favourite Turquoise ring back at Takashimaya before - and she gave her five types of rings that could fit her finger and taste. Mom got exquisite tastes so she prefers big fat stones over teeny-weeny ones, which i just adore.

Anita told her that if she purchased an item over $100, she'll get a membership card and have 20% on anything she wanna buy. But she told her that some items with a yellow or blue tag, is 50% off. WONDERFUL OFFER RIGHT??? I know! I immediately took the chance - coughed, to be exact - to coax her into getting me one. She just made a face and said fine. I picked several but most of them where three sizes too big and Anita, sweet Anita, picked me one that is just beautiful on my little finger. It's a slim ring with an oval-shaped Garnet stone. It's gorgeous i tell you. It's originally priced at $25 but after 50% it's only $12.90. Can you believe it? What kind of jewellery store tags their items at such a low price?

Anita: It was to clear the stocks and bring in new ones.
Mom: Your rings are gorgeous, ah.
Lana: Yay, new ring! Now i dont feel so naked without a ring on my left hand anymore! Yay!
Sis: *playing with my Mom's handbag* Hehehe.

Then, halfway to paying, Anita picked up a gorgeous ring with what looked like an Onyx stone. But guess what? It wasn't. It's a Black Star. A black stone that, when brought under the light, forms one to two stars in the middle of the stone. It's a natural reaction, too! Awesome right? Urgh, she has such gorgeous rings i can't believe i was caught in the trap! I adore her rings! And then, yes, my Mom bought the Black Star ring. Now, she is two rings richer and way happier for her upcoming birthday. Yeah, she bought those rings for herself. LOL. And me? Well, i'm one ring done. =)

Now, still waiting for dear bf to text me back. He's busy with his cousin's engagement so he might be back late. I really wish he'd call me at night like he said he would. I was planning to go somewhere with him, to wind down. Been a while since i saw him last. Oh well....

Have a wonderful Sunday!

xoxo,

Lana

Sigh, sigh, sigh

Had school today. It wasn't a long one though, but i had loads of fun teasing my friends and calling one 'Garbage'. Why? Well he somehow compared - and directly pointed at a girl with my friend Natassha. I seriously thought they look the same, with the chin and jawline but she wasn't anywhere near pretty like Tassha. She's prettier. =) Then she told my friend that she was insulted to have been compared to with a girl like that. So she compared him with garbage. Nice once, love. LOL. Then halfway through lesson i received a text that there's to be a meeting concerning the CCN day that my school is having next friday. From morning until... hopefully not too long. My stall would be selling biscuits, sweets and accesories and smack dab in the crazy crowd. Pray to God we sell everything and we're not a useless, boring stall.

Well, it's just a short update here. Not in the right frame of mind to write anymore so... =)

xoxo

Lana

Sony Vaio CR, chilli, tongues

Wow, scheduled outage. Something i've never seen before. Oh well, that goes to show that some things just needs to be maintained so they could stay alive and well for other people to use and go peachy about. I just got home from school and lunch date with Mom and lil' sista. Had rendang burger, onion rings and Sprite. I wanted to go around TM to shop for something (despite being almost broke). But it wasn't important, though. I can buy it when i want to. Besides, the bag i'm using now - which belongs to Mom - is alright for me. Therefore i will buy something that suits me and not for its brand name. I got one, from Bugis Street, but sadly, it's gone to waste. It's not as stylish or nice as i thought when i bought it and i regretted for every cent i spent. Too bad. Haha.

Oh and i learnt more French (Francais) today! It's sooo cool. There was Natassha, seated beside me during Engineering Mathematics 2, her head over her shoulder as i wrote down my little notes in french and english (how to easily pronounce it). It was very nice and somehow the more i learned the more i regretted not taking French this year. It's so nice! The French words i speak just rolls out of my mouth, smooth and silky and it sounded good. De rien. =)

And did i mention that my innocent spot of chilli sauce, which must i remind you, was soooo darn noticeable by my Mom and sis, that it was 'attacked' thrice in a row?? OK, this was how it went. First, as we ate and i talked to my Mom, sis was busy playing with her spot of tomato sauce when all of a sudden, when i looked down to the tray, my chilli sauce disappeared under her nugget box and i whined.

Lana: Ehh!! My chilli sauce!!
Mom: *laughs*
Sis: *grins*

Then as i munched on my messy rendang burger, i looked down again and my chilli disappeared once more. This time under a tissue that my Mom used.

Lana: Mom! Jeez! *picks up tissue and wails*
Mom: *laughs*
Sis: *laughs*

And finally, the third time - which is NO charm - was under an onion ring pack. And i said to myself, 'why in heaven's name is my chilli sauce being squashed into nothing? Can't they see for crying out loud??'

Lana: *picks up onion pack* my innocent chilli!! *wails*
Mom: *laughs... harder*
Sis: *laughs and giggles*
Mom: *pulls out Sprite straw and droplets of water flicked onto my dress*
Lana: MOM! What's wrong with you people? I wear pretty-pretty and there you go attacking me and my poor chilli sauce. T_T
Mom: *laughs*

Yeapp, that was my day. But it was very2 fun. I loved it. =) Oh and i downloaded new songs that i heard from my dear classmate's PINK PSP. Gorgeous colour, i tell ya. It's kindda like a milky pink colour. Hot yet creamy like. Very chic and nice. But now SONY released Ver. 2. A sleeker piece and in two different colours. If i could recall, it was Piano Black and something in silver. I think. Can't remember. I was paying too much attention on SONY VAIO CR. AHH! I want, i want, i want! It's soooo gorgeous! More gorgeous that some PSP. The red colour on that VAIO is so rich and luscious it's like lipstick! ARGH! I soooo want!

OK, OK, while you go bored over my ramblings - hopefully not - i might think about permanently creating a new page in my blog where i type in some French and Japanese words that i picked up from school. =) But if it deemed difficult, i will find a new skin to accomodate my goal. LOL!

Righty then, pigeons. I'm off.

xoxo

Lana

BORED!

Oh, my word. I am bored, bored, bored! Gosh, the first quiz in my QUIZZIES page proved everything right about the manner of my blogging. I somehow may not have any solid topic to blog on but i have other stuffs that might spark a little interest, no? Oh well, i thought i'd like to read some mangas i downloaded from VNManga but i've read them all. I thought i'd like to continue writing my projects until they're finished but somehow i have no juice in me to continue. I thought i'd watch some cable TV but i see nothing that interests me. I wanna chat with my peeps on MSN but none wanted to chat with me. =( LOL.

Right now, i'm stuck with listening to Hate that I love You from Rihanna feat. Ne-yo. I kindda thought that there was a time where both of them dated each other. Was it true? I'm not that sure but it seemed that it was a false piece of news. Anyways, my mother chatted with my father vacationing ever-so far away in San Francisco. I'm happy that they're conversing so much even through the internet. LOL. It looked sweet.

Oh, i've yet to talk about what happened today. After my web app lesson which i got totally stuck over while the rest survived, i went through Networking Fundamentals lecture and taught my lovely friend, Natassha, how to understand a Manchester reading. Dont have to understand what i meant but... LOL. After that five of us went off to eat Pizza at Pizza Hut. It was scrumptious yet expensive! Urgh! Sucks to pay something that didn't mean a thing. Wasn't worth paying so much for. I mean, really! It's just a restaurant. It ain't high-end like some other big-shot restaurants in town. Sheesh! There goes my $10.

But after that we headed off to the arcade to play some DAYTONA. I didn't know i drove pretty well even if the steering wheel was too darn light and the gear was until 4. I would like to have reached to gear 5. But the biggest discouragement was that i was the only one who's licensed to drive and i couldn't get 1st place. Totally bummed out. ='( OK, now i have a blogger's block.

Oh well, will update when i will. =)

Good night, peeps! Oyasumi nasai!

Lana

Finally!

Aha! Voila! YATTA! I have finally beautified my lovely little blog. Wow. What an hour makes to such a miniscule thing like an online public-diary. LOL. Although, you've gotta mind me 'cuz i just love to change layouts. Most of the time once a week so... Teehee. I guess i'll just have to tell my friends about this so that i can get some publicity for the effort i put in to making this blog. LOL. OK, OK, so it's nothing and it's common for peeps like me to have one but please, my html skills have gone way too rusty and i've gotten slower and distracted. Oh well, while you're reading my posts and gone bored, try my quizzies that've gone permanently glued to my blog. I've picked interesting pieces, mostly for girls, to try but it ain't wrong, though. =) Guys can try too! Just go to the webbie i've left on my OUTS page and voila, 1001 quizzies on just about anything. Hehe.

Enjoy, my little pigeons.

Lana

Random fandom. Accept me!

Right... I'm early for my web applications in school and i have yet to enjoy my pizza at TM for lunch with me classmates. Hopefully alot of us go. It's fun that way and not too bare or empty. I just finished my Japanese lesson and it went out good. I finally started learning something, instead of keeping quiet and trying my best not to boast how much i know about Japanese. Clearly i still do wanna learn as much as i can. =) I've learnt how to say my handphone number in Japanese, the days of the week, and some other complicating questions from one person to another. Introducing friends was alright i guessed. Heheh.

Right now we're still sorta having a break in between lessons, awaiting the rest of the students to come to class at 10 am. Somehow, i dont get why there's still people who come late. Although, i understand that part where they wanna sleep in as much as they can. In hopes of getting that wanted sleep (more than 8 hours if possible). Just like me. LOL.

The purpose of this blog was somewhat to ease my irritation of not getting enough publicity like i used to. When i was a rabid blogger, an active one whereby every minute of every day i would update about absolutely nothing, i had several of my friends' links and they used to visit my site, tagging my board and leaving several messages on their own blog. But now i've lost complete contact on them and i practically have no one to ask for a critique. LOL. Oh well, at least i have the rest of the blogosphere peeps to do that job for me. =)

Oh and it was because i read XIAXUE's blog [http://www.xiaxue.blogspot.com] i became hooked to having my own where i am myself and i set aside the part of me that many have difficulty understanding. Unfortunately for my anime-side, i'm saddened by the fact that people like me are considered weird and geeky. Jeez, we aint that darn geeky. We are smart in many ways and we are cool, too. Hmph. I hate isolation among peers and ostracizing them just because we're different in so many ways. Still, for a fact, we're all the same.

Love,

Lana

Starting out... again

OK, i'm at it again. But this time i'm keeping it real close to my heart. The part where anime is set aside and the real me is revealed. Of course, some secrets should be kept close to the vest (my identity is certainly not real. Almost like my alter ego). So do mind me =) But i'm just the same. Only more speaking English and more outspoken. My other blog is for anime lovers out there, proudly displaying their love for anime and mangas from JAPAN. We salute the mangaka's and creators of such beloved anime and manga. Muax!

Teehee. Alrighty, me leave now. Too late to blog more. Will updates soon!

Love,

Lana