all's fair in love and war

Fairness

What is fair in Life? Is it compromise? Is it balance? Or is it cloaked as denial? What IS fair? I have no idea where my religious belief in fairness came from, or spawned out of, but I'm one who is always about fairness and equality - cheesy it is not. I guess it's how i've been raised up when i was younger, or maybe it's coz of how much i want my life to be fair - like i wanted to be treated fairly. If i treat people with utmost fairness, then i wish to be treated with the same respect. Who wouldn't want to receive something of equal calibre, right?

I dunno. Right now i'm wondering if i should react to something that i somewhat refuse to understand or overlook. But if i do react to it, i'm afraid i wouldn't be forgiven, least of all be understood. Maybe i can raise my voice, speak up a little, make known my insecurities? Is that advisable?

PS (to my friend, G): Haiz.. :( chin up, friend. You look horrible. It's like your glow has been stripped completely, and to be honest i kindda missed it. I'm sure there'd be others who'd agree on that. Again, take it easy. *hugs*

Take care y'all and God Bless

XOXO!

drum roll please

I'M BACK IN BUSINESS, BAYBEH!!!

YES! My computer is back up, ready, cleaned out 100% and running faster than it had years before. Apparently, i had so much junk in my acct i was shocked to see how many things i had to delete. LOL! But now that i have reinstalled everything that i lost during the reformatting, i'm happy and satisfied. :D

Take care y'all and God Bless

XOXO!

to you, G

Dear friend,

I wish you know how sad i am to see you like this, to know that this friendship has come to a close on such a solemn note. In spite of how little i know you, i know as much that you care alot for the one i love dearly and hold close to my heart. She's amazing, and we both know that. But at times like these, you gotta stay strong no matter what. As i've said before, when the time is right and it calls for it, walk away. Just walk away, rather than diminishing all the wonderful memories you've collected over the past month. I know it's tough, i've been there, i've felt it, and i've grown. I'm here for you, friend, and i'll always be. We won't see you around much anymore, but you know where to reach me. I'm not far away, and i wont bite. Just know that you got me as a friend.

All my love.

never

Never have i stayed away from someone for so long

Never have i missed my beloved so very much

Never have i wanted to hold him so very tightly

Never have i wanted to smile at him so very widely

Never have i looked for a trace of him with longing eyes

Never have i felt so much love for one person with tears in my eyes

Never have i wished so very hard to see you now

Never have i been so happy to hear you'll be with me soon

Come back to me, like freaking ASAP. I think i'm losing my mind waiting for you for nearly 3 weeks. :'(

All my love

so.. how's me?

One would ask: how this blogger is? Why isn't she updating crazy things like she used to? Why isn't she posting tonnes of pictures? Why isn't she reporting every single damn event that happened in her life?

Well, truth is people i am not the type who'd go all out about the privacies of my life. I have boundaries i refuse to cross (i'm sure i've said this a thousand times before) so please, if you're hoping thru and asking all these questions, stop. HAHA.

Anyways, i am a-ok for those who are still too stubborn and is still wondering about me. :) School going great, i'm still sleepy as ever (my entire fault), i haven't seen my dearest boyfie for nearly 2 weeks, and i am dreading the Final Exams coming this February. I have nothing new and professional to wear to my "interview" that's being graded (part of the curriculum). And.. i am planning to continue my studies after my Diploma :) I'd love the luck and blessing right now y'all! HAHA.

OK, short short post. Take care and God Bless

XOXO!

choices the 2nd

8 months.

It was a good 8 months. Had tonnes of fun, no doubt. But nothing comes easy and i've finally experienced what i feared the most. It was no surprise to me when it happened, but i was so frightened. Though i am glad that we talked it through and turned out right.

We're such a.. laid-back couple i dunno if that's even remotely normal these days. Now that we're in 2010, i thought maybe i should rethink about the choices i'm about to make, that might possibly change the way i will live in the future. Now, even though i'm only 21 turning 22, choices these days are getting harder to make, and the consequences are pilling up like there's no tomorrow. We're barely "old" enough - in this case i see people who are 25 and above as old - to handle our own lives without our parents help let alone own a house.. yet here we all are, wondering what, how, and where we're gonna build our adult lives now.

Life is no longer easy, like when we were babies/toddlers/youngsters/adolescents. It's no longer peachy with fluffy clouds or bouncing bunnies or filled with pretty flowers everywhere. Now, it's all about dog-eat-dog, taking every opportunity you can find, work harder than you've ever had, climb the social/professional ladder no matter what the costs.. How sad can life be? Why can't we just get along, be nice to each other, be polite, be gracious, be respectful? Why must the cruelties of life interfere with our goals? Money, sex, backstabbing, lies, deceit, greed.. It's just too sad for me to comprehend how scary my life will get once i'm done studying.

But that fear, has a part to play in Life. Without fear you will not understand your limits, the consequences, or how much you expand your will to wanna try and overcome that fear, and to gain the ultimate prize after years of hard labour. Wouldn't you want that? No man wouldn't refuse sucha feeling.

Wow.. I'm only turning 22 and i'm talking like i'm 30. Urgh.. 30. I FEAR for that more than anything. I cannot imagine seeing myself when i'm 30 years old. OMG. But i do hope when i reach that age, i'm already having a kid of my own :) that'd be awesome beyond splendid. Amazing beyond wonderful. Beautiful beyond breathtaking.

OK! Done. LOL

Take care y'all and God Bless

XOXO!

gbye 2009.. Hello 2010

2010

A decade before i was stressing myself out with PSLE.

A decade before i was fantasizing on which Secondary School i'd be going to.

A decade before i was thinking of the perfect sec sch sweetheart.

HAHAHA.

Short post. Nothing interesting to report, really. Sad but true. Just that school's been.. tough, but manageable i guess? I just can't wait to leave this school with my DIP. I do wish i get it :(

Take care y'all and God Bless

XOXO!