forgiving

Regrets.

What is it about regrets that moves us, that overwhelms us, that empowers us, that denies our right to comfort ourselves and to tell ourselves that the decision(s) have been made and there's nothing you can do to take it back? So what if the consequences were too hard to handle, or that you were faced with such unfairness from life. 

Isn't that Life?

Isn't that just how it is?

Not everything has to go your way - despite what others boldly declare to the world. As much as some people say that they want to create their own path, create their own destiny for themselves.. you gotta wonder: Do you really think God would give us that much power over our lives? That everything, and i mean EVERYTHING is done by Free Will? Sure, we make mistakes; we have our stupid moments, but at every turn don't anyone notice the subtle control in the background? Don't anyone realize that certain choices you make has their consequences? The consequences are the control. 

There was a time where i regretted everything i did, and certain times i don't. That was when i got stupid, foolish, self-centered, and bitter. I hurt people; my family, my friends - people who cared about me unconditionally, never leaving my side despite the treatment i gave them. They love me despite the choices i made. Sure they will reminisce and certain grudges resurface, but there's always room for forgiveness. Always. Of course, you can't forgive someone right out of the bat, or a snap of a finger. No, but it's not impossible or illogical. Given time, forgiveness will grow on us and you will one day forget and forgive. 

So, i have not regretted the choices i made. Things happen and i have to accept the consequences given to me. If He wishes to punish me, i will gladly accept it, live through it and learn from the mistakes. I will understand why it happened and i will know that i will not repeat the same mistake ever again. I grow stronger this way, and i've never looked back.

So, i forgive u.