spike that drink

Spontaneous Evening with the 3NsPictures taken using LG Crystal GD900Courtesy of Nigel Sim.
(He's pretty well-known here in my blog)

Beautiful shot, really. Salute. ;)

Prettiest shot evahh.. Excluding me. :x




Drinks were spiked. They had too much energy. I didnt. :D





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OK, be prepared everyone. I've been meaning to bring this up but i just couldn't find the right words to express my indifference.
So. I hate it when people ask me this ONE simple question:
"So.. How's life?"
I get so angry whenever that question is directed to me. I dunno why. It's been going on for quite a while now and only certain people have that particularly bad habit of asking that with everyone they know. It's either they ran out of good questions to ask a long-lost friend, or they're just ready to compare lives and see who's got it bad. Thats just how i see it, i know it's far from the truth but i just hate that question.
What're you trying to imply? I mean really? Are you trying to wonder who got it bad, or good? Are you trying to be polite - because i dont feel the question as polite. I really dont. I just dont get it.
(Everyone's open to clarify this peculiar question with me so just tag on my tagboard)
Anyways, when being asked that question, i get a sense of annoyance, and i get defensive. I know most people dont mean to pry, and most are just being polite, but really.. Why ask that?? Why can't you ask a better question like:
"So, how've you been doing?"
Isn't that sucha nicer question to hear and ask? To me, asking how my life is is like asking me a rhetorical question. How else do you think Life is to everyone else in this world? There are bad things, good things, the mediocre.. what more do you wanna hear and know? Look at me, i'm holding up just right. I deal with the problems i face with whatever willpower i got in me, conclude it, and move on. I do not blame God, i do not blame my parents, i do not blame how i was brought up. I blame the choices i make, and the reasons i used to justify myself. I blame me for the bad things that happen to ME. What you do to others will just come back to you two-fold. Dont think you can get away with ANYTHING on Earth.
No one gets away with anything.
So think again when asking the people's most favourite question:
"So.. How's life?"
Will stop ranting. Will continue slaving away. Haiz.
To my beloved botak-head of a man, stop eating fried chicken wings and thighs and rice, eat something else, love. Lolz.
To Ian who's booking out this Fri. One word, dude. YANA. :)
To everyone else who's enjoying their much-deserved holidays: enjoy it well and hard :D
Hope Monday didn't turn out so bad for y'all. Take care and God Bless.
XOXO!

a glimpse of my fixation

The sound of crashing waves on the pale, sandy beach startled me and I turned from the darkness that I appeared from. Confused for a moment I looked at my surroundings, questioning where I was. I raised my head to stare at the palest of blue skies I’ve ever seen, at the tall trees that shadowed the lush grass beneath my bare feet, and finally to the faraway cargo ships that stayed still and unmoving. With a furrowed brow, I took a step forward and watched the waves crash onto the shores again, causing white foam to form a line on the sand. I took another step forward. A gust of wind blew past me, swirling me about, ruffling my hair, giving me a whiff of an unfamiliar scent that hung in the crisp air. I inhaled once.

It smelt fruity.

I looked about, not knowing what I was looking for. I couldn’t find any fruits lying about, or any other people besides me for that matter.

“Where am I?”

The sun shone brighter now and I raised my hand to shelter my eyes from the sweltering heat. It burned my skin a little since I realised I was wearing a simple white linen shirt and jeans. I walked towards the shore and touched the waves that crashed and swallowed my feet. It was cool. I raised my head from watching the foam around my feet and looked at my surroundings again, slowly concluding, finally, where I am.

“This is Changi Beach…” I muttered.

This is just a taste of what i've been working on, irregularly, unfortunately. I really wish i had the opportunity to pursue my biggest of dreams, and that is to write a novel that i will cherish and love, and that my friends and family could be proud of; to say that I had written this. That i accomplished something in my life. That i am a writer.

It's not completed yet. Still stuck with some plots to slip into my "project". i'm hoping this will be a breakthrough for me because it's difficult to write with a local scene in mind. i have huge, beautiful scenes that are more suitable for the middle of the story - which is pretty much typical of me since i'm sucha huge sucker for heartbreaking drama in a story. i actually indulge in separations, and the reasons for separations, and then to read on on how they managed to pull thru and stick together despite the odds. i like plots like that. LOL.

Anyways, it's a Sunday. Will be expecting people to come. Wont be going out prolly. :( Sighs.

I miss you, all the time, MFBR. Thinking of you always and always, and more of it.

Take care, everyone. And God Bless.

XOXO!

sighs. sucks.

cancelled plans sucks.

plans that dont go smoothly sucks.

plans that ended badly sucks.

plans that dont give me you sucks.

being disappointed sucks.

coffee, scents, cutie-pies

23rd Sept 2009 - Wednesday

Location: Changi Airport, Singapore

Reason: Lepak jek larhh.. Aper slh nyer.

(LOL)

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Missing you always, dearest MFBR. Hope you're doing fine.
Take care y'all and God Bless
XOXO!
PS: Download this song that i'm in love with now!
Title: Two is Better than OneArtiste(s): Boys like Girls feat. Taylor Swift

I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life

And I thought hey

You know this could be something

'Cause everything you do and words you say

You know that it all takes my breath away

And now I'm left with nothing

'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you

Well maybe two is better than one

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,

The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste

You make it hard for breathing

'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away

I think of you and everythings okay

And finally now, we're leaving

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you

Well maybe two is better than one

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life

And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you

Maybe two is better than one

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you

'Cause baby two is better than one

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And I've figured out with all that's said and done

Two, is better than one

Two is better than one

i'm truly sorry

Dear MFBR,

To the one i love most, i wish i was there when the news was given to you. I wish i was there to lend a shoulder, or a listening ear, to you; or provide some words of sympathy. Oh, i wish i could've held you close and told you everything would be OK. It must've been scary to you, and it must've been sucha shock. I've lost people i've known too, but i've never been thru what you just did. I wish i knew better things to say than just "take it easy" or "i'm so sorry". I wish i was there to support you. I wish i could've seen you and shown you how sorry and sad i am. Oh, dear love, i wish i'd hugged you before you left..

From,

NbB

i heart u~

I

heart heart heart heart,

heart heart heart heart,

HEART HEART HEART HEART,

my one and only,

MFBR!

sad

RIDICULOUS Food War btwn Asian countries

After reading the stupid article i got so mad i was undeniably boiling. When i heard it in the news i got so sick i didn't wanna listen to it any further. I also heard it from momsie and i just got mad at how pathetic this "war" can be. Fighting over the rights of Asia's famous and beloved dishes? Please, go find something else to write an article on. They're all big freaken excuses - reasons to bring forth hate onto their people and create senseless disputes btwn countries. It's disgusting, pathetic, pitiful and a huge freaken waste of time. Why spend it on yelling into the media about "claiming back our hijacked dishes" when you can use the time to save poor people from starvation? Geez, stupid fools. And they call themselves ministers. Crying out loud they're not fit to be ministers at all in my opinion.

And seriously...

HIJACKED DISHES?!

HIJACKED DISHES, you say?!!!

OMG!

And really, what makes you think they really do belong to YOU?! Please larh!

And the story about M'sia and Indonesia and the fight about claiming rights on a traditional, very well-known dance. O.M.G! Please larh.. nothing better to do is it? I dont get it. I really dont. And i am so ashamed that they're a Malay-majority community, making sucha huge fuss over something so damn small. Takde keje lain ker per. I really am sorry if i ever offend anybody concerning this post, and i am trying to be unbiased and fair as possible. BUT I CAN'T! Doesn't anybody see how ridiculous this "war" is? NO! I freaken dont. So yes, thank God i am a Singaporean. Thank God for our habits on saving face first than free will and honour. Think larh people, like seriously. What's the use? What's the point? Melayu same melayu.. tak patot eh gado2 cam gini.

Pissed. So so pissed.

:( And also this morning wasn't a good morning. Had a talk with Adli in the wee mornings from 145-2am. Bless his soul for being patient with me. He said a few things, i said a few things and it turned out to be quite an emotional conversation. Lol.. but all's well. So i guess those feelings were brought forward to my morning and i didn't feel a single hint of happiness bubbling in me, despite today being a Friday - the day that i finally see my botakhead after waiting patiently for 2 LONG weeks. I do wish tonight would be good, smooth, wonderful, worth rmbring. I do hope so. I pray it will be. Haiz..

OK, do not wanna infect any ill-feelings into any of y'all. So take care and God Bless.

1 day left to Raya! :)

XOXO!

meaning of life

Life.

With every step we take,

We experience things that we'd never dream of.

With every move we make,

We're closer to finding out the sole truth.

The truth of our being, the truth of life.

The truth of existing, the truth of death.

Life.

With every word said,

We hear things that we refuse to listen.

With every word heard,

We feel things that we swore never to feel.

We're going that much closer to realise the meaning of life.

The meaning of emotions, the meaning of emptiness.

The meaning of love, the meaning of hate.

Life.

With every life brought into this world,

We wondered about Man's power.

With every life stripped from this harsh, harsh world,

We wondered about God's power.

We question humanity, we question God's almighty will.

We question Science, we question religions and faith.

Life.

Life.

What does Life mean to you?

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Copyrighted (c)

Do respect the content of this post for i have written it with utmost sincerity and thought. I do hope no one has ever tried to rip my thoughts out of my blog and claim it as theirs. If so, i wish you'd stop and understand the meaning of hardwork.

In school now, and not in the bestest of moods. Granted i'm fasting, but i can't help feeling angry this morning and i almost cussed the lights out of Y for his accusations. I want this nightmare to end so that i could enjoy what's left of my holiday with my family. I dont want interruptions of any sort.

On a lighter note, Friday is coming closer and closer and i just can't wait to see my botak-head all dark and lean with muscles - i'm assuming. He did say his bod is too darn nice now that he's been going thru some tough training at HTA. Can't help but laugh so hard at his remark. He didn't call yesterday, so i'm assuming his batt died, he too darn tired, or he's just saving the stories for tomorrow.

Hari Raya coming soon, so whoever's intending to visit my place do gimme a call ;)

Take care and God Bless

XOXO

paranormal; animalistic; waxing

Is there such thing as bad(tudung)day? Coz i'm having it. :s







Can't seem to pick his nose right, can you? LOL


Mind him, busy catching flies.




If i constantly make that supposedly-shocked face everytime, whenever i see a paranormal being, hypothetically, i think they would just laugh instead of scaring the living lights outta me.



Raising the brow Natassha-style











Andika~! :)


Too free sitting in the car.


















So mischievous. I told her to stay out of the shot, she posed as well. -.-''





See that? She stuffed her face into the pillow LOL Cis, sisters these days.


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Wow, i've never gone this long without blogging. I think it's coz i was lacking good material to blog on. And also i dont have that many pics to post. And they're all generic so i thought otherwise.
I just watched the extended trailer of New Moon and it's awesome!! Gawd, despite it being a spoiler for all its fans out there, i think thru the trailers we can appreciate the hard work put into making the movie rawk. The director was awesome! :)
What else.. Oh! I finally finished reading Nicholas Sparks: Message in a Bottle, and if there's ever such a rating (?/20) i'd give it a 25/20. It's amazing! It's a simple story about hardships, understanding, and how strong attraction can be when one person looks at another - be it your future-soulmate or just a random stranger. Not that i am encouraging the random stranger part if you're already unavailable. :x ANYWAYS, to be honest i CRIED while reading the last chapter of that book! Gawd, it's such a tear-jerker. It gets to you at a certain point and i hate it whenever that happens to me. Am i that much of a softie? I think i am. Sucks.
So i'm waiting for fasting month to end properly before i begin the next new book that i bought but have yet to finish reading: Missing by Susan Lewis. I hate the fact that i buy new books that i wanted to read but never eventually read it. Then slowly, buying new and latest books seems to be a bad habit of mine and it no longer becomes "for the sake of reading new material" but instead its now "new book by the author - must collect!" Bad, BAD habit. I know.
Oh and today, i woke up bright and early - 9.45am - to go to Parkway Parade with Momsie since she wanna collect her 25$ voucher from Isetan. We went there with just our handbags. Came home with 4 shopping bags. -.-'' Mom bought make-up applicators, i bought Eyelash Curler - FINALLY - all from Watsons ;) Then we collected her voucher and she bought a new little purse for whenever she cycles off to the market, went to Marks & Spencer so she could buy a bra, walked around looking for a purse that i can use besides my beloved white Roxy bag. And after much consideration we stopped at ANIMAL(roar!) and picked up this gorgeous peach coloured bag for 59.00$. Costly i know but i fell in love with it! And once you fall in love, you'll never part from it. Believe me on that. LOL Then we grocery shopped at Giant before we took a cab, paid 9$ for the bumpy & crazy trip and laughed our asses off once we stepped on homey grounds. I was being goofy. Dunno why.

I like the fact that i actually made my mom snicker and laugh. It made me realise that she does enjoy my company and actually had fun with me :) Hehe.
And yes today until tomorrow it's Wax-the-lab Day so all who had to return to school are enjoying the fact that we can wake up late for these two days. LOL. Not much of an incentive but it's better than nothing. ;)
Take care y'all and God Bless
XOXO!

u complete me

He said no matter if he was busy or not, he will contact me either by text or phonecall.

He called.

And i wasn't expecting too much from him. Coz all the while, i understood that he must've been tired. But when his voice came into my ears like warm, warm chocolate i finally felt my sadness and loneliness disappear into oblivion, like it wasn't even there in the first place.

OK, in actual truth, despite what people assumed with that they see on my face, i do not seem that horribly sad that i dont hear from him that regularly nowadays. I do feel that little emptiness swelling in my heart like a balloon everyday, but there's nothing i can do but wait for him to contact me. I dont wanna txt him every bloody day saying how i am coz i knw he wont reply. And i want him to concentrate on his training. Thursdays always come soon and Thursdays dont run away from our grasps.

It was like hearing an angel speaking into my ear - cheesy, i know. It was a beautiful, and fun 30 mins i've ever had in my life. He was so curious about how i was doing, and was wondering what else am i gonna say before he ended the conversation. He was awfully sweet - brings tears to my eyes now just recalling it. The talk may have been short, but i'm sure once we see each other words can't truly express how i wld feel when i see him in the flesh.

Ahh.. my very own botak-head. Oh, no wait. Scratch that. He said he chopped his long tresses for a Scofield-cut. *imagines but fails*

Gosh. I can see it now. That impending day. That Friday. Sigh.. He can bet on anything he's got that i'm gonna hug him like nobody's business. Lol.

I do miss him. Terribly terribly miss him. Sigh.

Oh wells. I just gotta be patient. And our project is of no help at all. I can't believe it decides to shut itself down, NOW! OMG me and Tassh are like pulling our hair - or maybe just hers - coz of these bloody codes! I dunno how we're gonna deal with this.. Seriously i dont. And work.. oh, oh work.. Sigh..

Well, take care y'all and God Bless. Can't wait for Hari Raya!!! :D

XOXO!

heart ze rpattz

Picture Pick-Up: Mad About Madly Insane About Robert Pattinson

Courtesy of WeHeartIt.com

OK, so my attention has been fully diverted when i suddenly thought of said heartthrob. But who doesn't like this juicy hunk of meat, right? I know my niece does. ;) And yes, of couse, i do too. But it's just a tribue. And i know it's a tad bit too much but hey, my blog, my rules, other uh.. peeps' pictures. :x

Well, enjoy!

PS: Sorry to the boys who hate him. Screw you :D

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I shall now released the scream that i have held too long while hosting, resizing, and filling the pics into this post.
.....
*screams*
Take care y'all and God Bless
XOXO!
PS: No, it's so not an unhealthy obsession. Just a fan. :D