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Here i am, once again, blogging like nobody's business. LOL. But i'm supposed to be doing something else, you know? And that's to edit my Japanese Elective Role-Play script. Sheesh, i am quite 'brain-dead' and i cannot think of anything else to edit what's already been created from my own once-alive brain. I'm telling you, i have no more juice in me to put in more effort into this script. The boys around me are just shaking legs while i foolishly volunteered to do the script without any of their help. Foolish, i know.

Anyways, Saturday and Sunday was totally spent with family instead of darling bf on Saturday. Me and my family went to Darul Ihsan BOYS Orphanage again to finish up counting the remaining tins. Me, mom and sis came over at 3.30 and we finished at almost 6pm so i was itching to go out more since i wore quite my best. LOL. But we only went to KFC to have dinner, since of course my aching TONGUE ULCER has finally receded. Along with the pain disappearing, my hunger grew twice-fold and i've been gorging down on everything i see and buy. I was hungry! Because of this ulcer on my tongue, i've stopped eating as many times as i can, unless necessary. It hurts alot when i talk and eat, even if i munched on the other side where there's no ulcer whatsoever. But now, i'm just relieved as ever that i don't feel the pain anymore. =)

Then on Sunday, my mother somehow surprised me by telling me that all of us are going to the National Museum of Singapore to visit their Greek Masterpieces Exhibition. And being everything Greek, there are loads of naked statues with hefty packages. I am not kidding. But when i look at the statues, i don't pay attention on that thingy, i look at the detailed carvings of faces, clothes, expressions, hairs - they were all intricate-looking and beautiful. I wanted to take pictures of those statues but they prohibited photo-taking so i didn't take any. We only had my father's camera but i seemed to be automatically in-charged of and glued myself to the camera. I dunno why i began to have a sense of photographic-adrenaline inside me. LOL. Whatever that meant. Oh well, these are just the piccys i took at the exhibit - well, outside of it where only banners of the exhibit were hung. =) Enjoy.

PS: THERE ARE NO PORNO HERE IN MY BLOG. -_-



NSM's current exhibit: Greek Masterpieces from the Louvre



One of the FAMOUS visitors: Yours Truly =] *cough*



Picture taken on my 17th birthday. They surprised me, and it was the beginning of my many night outs. =) Thanks to them. Loves~!



[Dily, myself, Mrs Chen, Haryana]
Teachers Day Celebration. Last year, i think?



Another crazy picture of us, monkeys. Well, not me or Dil, of course. =p

LOL. Old pictures, they never cease to amuse us, don't they? Such wonderful bittersweet memories these pictures bring. I never take pictures for granted, and would always take any chance to snap one before the moment's gone. =)

XOXO!

Lana

Lyrics

STOP! I know once you hear the Japanese song playing in my background would make you want to blog-hop somewhere else, but i am telling you, heart-to-heart, this song that you are listening to is like none other. It has meaning to its song, a sense of sincerity, overflowing emotions very heartfelt and warm... Gosh, peeps, i am telling you, this is a song worth sitting down and listening to.

You may not like or understand what it is, but just listen and give it your time. And as you listen, i have set aside the Japanese lyrics and the translated version below. For a better understanding. =) Enjoy it, please! And do tag so that i know what you really feel when you listen to this.

XOXO!

Lana

***

Understand
Lyrics: YUI
Music: YUI
Romaji by: cori

tabun naiteta  kaerimichi utsumuita mama de
nani mo ienakatta  zutto soba ni ita kedo

kouen wo yokogitte  chikamichi shite aruita
nantonaku  wakatteru yo  atashi ni datte

yuugure ni nobiru kage
  shiawase no katachi ga kawaru
zutto issho da yo  sou itte ita noni

kanashimi wa itsu datte
  aijou no chikaku ni hisonde
ijiwaru suru yo tte  warainagara hanashiteta

seigi no mikata nante  moshi hontou ni ita nara
komarasete shimau kamo ne  nante omotta

yuugure ni nobiru kage
  shiawase no katachi ga kawaru
zutto issho ni wa irarenai kara

semete bakari ite wa  ikite yukenai yo
datte machigai bakari
  ...kurikaesu n' da... kurikaesu n' da

yuugure ni nobiru kage
  shiawase no katachi ga kawaru
arukihajimeta  daijoubu da yo

English translation:

I was probably crying

Downcast on the way back.

Although I was always close by

I couldn't say a thing…


As I walked

I took the short cut by crossing the park.

I kind of knew already…


… The shadow stretched across the ground

Even I know, the shape of happiness.


"We'll always be together"

That's what you said…

"Even when there's love, there's always

Sadness nearby, hiding"

You laughed as you talked.


If there really was such thing as a hero

I thought you might have a problem with it…


… The shadow stretched across the ground

Even I know, the shape of happiness.


We can't always be together, 

So you can't live on by always accusing... 

Because you repeat the same mistakes

Over and over.


… The shadow stretched across the ground

Even I know, the shape of happiness.


Now I've started walking…

It's going to be alright

Hum-hum

OK OK, i know i have not been updating this poor little being and as unfortunate as it is, i have no good reasons as to why i have been neglecting my baby blog-blog (not a permanent nickname). But all i can say is that there were things going on in my life that i have tried to settle and sort out, school to face and projects to complete. I wont go into such detail as to why i had these difficult times but as of now, i am doing better than i expected. I am taking things slowly and calmly, doing my hardest to not blow a gasket whenever it comes to miniscule problems, and accepting the fact that there are just things out there that aren't worth fighting, yelling, and beating each other up over. Some things are just best left alone and forgotten. =]

Anyways, i have been going around collecting piccys to fill up an empty post. Thus, here are the piccys for over the past 2-3 weeks. lol



The 3 'N's



Stuck together thru the thickest and the thinnest =)



Let's get pouty! XD



My favourite little one: KMS



She gives me hugs when i am down. =]

Yep, so that's it i guess. I'm having that blogger's block again so i won't ramble on about boring stuffs. =p Right now i am having my web-app and i had done my part of the whole project. I have yet to be ordered around in doing something else. Hehe. Oh and to those who were 'looking' for me on Saturday (19/01) and Sunday (20/01), i was busy volunteering at Darul Ihsan BOYS Orphanage from 8am - 6pm, so i apologise for not going online, or calling people, or texting people. =)

Take care! Oh and to all my TP peeps, exams are coming our way so good luck~!!!

XOXO

Lana

Poems II

If i was given the chance to say what i truly wanted,
Then this would be it,
If i was given the moment to scream out the things that are important,
Then this would be it,
If i was given the choice to choose,
You would be it.

Hear my heart beating loudly for you,
Hear my soul screaming out for you,
Touch my hand that's been reaching out to you,
Embrace my open arms that are only for you,
Listen to my words that are solely spoken to you,
Feel my love pouring endlessly to you.

TIME CHECK:-

Start: 2355 hours
Finish: 0006 hours

Lana

Let me fall...

I think i'm falling,
Falling and falling, to a place i don't wanna be,
To a place i cannot see,
To a place so dark and scary.

I think i'm falling,
Falling and falling, to a place i see as Hell,
A Hell so intense, it's killing me slowly

A Hell so deep, it's suffocating me

I think i'm falling,
Falling and falling, to an abyss as cold as ice,
So cold, i could hardly breathe,
So cold, my tears pierced through my cheeks

I think i'm falling,
Falling and falling, into a quiet solitude,
So quiet, i could hear my heart breaking,
So quiet, i could hear my bones shattering,
So quiet, i could hear myself choking,
So quiet, i could hear my mom's faraway crying

I think i'm falling,
Falling and falling,
Falling and falling,
Falling and falling

I think i'm falling,
Falling and falling,
Until i couldn't fall anymore,
Until my heart couldn't beat,
Until my soul couldn't speak,
Until my mind couldn't see,
Until my lips couldn't scream

I think i'm falling,
Falling,
And falling.

Written by: Lana
Started at 7:40pm
Ended at 7:52pm

Updated!

Due to some complications of the heart, i have grown lazy to update. But with good reasons, *coughNOPICScough* Yup. I only have one fresh pic to show and to me, it seemed useless to only post one pic when i can collect more and post them all at once. Don't you think so too? Hehe. Also, school's been hectic right now, and my tears have been filling my eyes every night. But it ain't a big problem. It's just a thing with me. =) Maybe it's the time where i couldn't hold anything back any longer.

Anyways, thanks to Dily, i have to update my blog or else she will skin me alive and scream into my ear to update. Haish. Hehe. OK, now i've lost my motivation to blog so i'll just leave it here. =) Hehe. The piccys and in-depth posts will come when i blog again. Hopefully with more juice and snap so that i can keep y'all reading. LOL. Maybe i might start writing stuffs that i am not agreeing with, like this thing... and that thing... and those things... Aha! =) OK ridiculous.

Bye-bye my pigeons!

Lana

Regular update

Hey there y'all! =) How did Thursday treat you? Besides the rainy hours, and sunny moments, i'm sure Thursday did enough justice to you. =) Well, unfortunately for me. I don't have much stuff to tell here. Other than school and the usual things - Tassha telling me stuffs that's going on in her life, which is just troublesome for her and i sympathize her - everything went out alright. Nothing strange happened, except moments in OOP which was just weird.

It all started with me actually doing my best and trying my very hardest to do it myself and with as little help from the teacher as possible. I was actually on a roll back there, really checking through past labs and making sense of all the codes in the lab. And he did say that the lab was important for next two weeks' labtest.

And then there was this very funny moment where i was almost done with the practical when i called out to the teacher, who was sitting in the middle, almost beside me, and was zoning out. I called out to him several times, looking at him with stern eyes. But he ignored me, even when i said to my friends "OK, he's ignoring me..." and then my friends laughed and called out to him, then FINALLY he looked my way and said, "Oh! Sorry," then he came to my table and helped me out. LOL. He is so cute and funny. I've never seen anybody that zoned out before. Sheesh.

Anyways, this was what happened during OOP. Just two pics. Of me and my friend, Ming Sheng. He looked pretty well-done today, messed up hair and a nice striped shirt with two buttons, UNBUTTONED. I kept telling him to button up because it's disturbing and people might mistake him from flashing himself. Haha.



Candid shot of me drinking Sprite Ice, and using my laptop. =)



Ming Sheng! The genuis. => Hehe

Alrights my pigeons, i am off. If y'all need anything, do drop a tag on my tagboard. I will reply anytime, anywhere. =) Cya! Take care.

XOXO

Lana

Aching pains and silly babbles

Yes! I have changed the background image of my blog from polka-dots to lovely black stars. LOL. I almost got the HTML wrong but being the oh-so-patient person that i am *coughTRYINGTOcough* i did it slowly and with calm. With that time of month, going haywire is not the best of options. Not only am i having a terrible ache to my poor tummy, i'm feeling lightheaded and dizzy every time i walked or turned my head. I know, it's scarier to me. But anyways, the most comforting thing is that i found out soon and after the bustling of Japanese Class Test and going back home. OK, enough of the gory details of womenhood and let's get back to why i am updating. =p

Today, after i took my class test and returned home to do some assignment for my WebApp teacher, rain started to pour and i kept looking at the clock, counting the minutes 'til it's the right time for me to leave the house and meet Tassha for what's left of NetFund. The surprising thing is, we made it for at least 45 mins of lecture. LOL. Then we hurried off to the library, so as to avoid a certain someone and flipped open our laptops to start another project that we hoped to have done by today. Throughout the typing and chatting, i managed to do five slides while Tassha found several images to add some colour to my wordy-wordy presentation. Then, the aches doubled and i couldn't take it anymore, ran over to the restroom. And the rest... is history - and maybe a lil' gross to a certain 'heroic' species called MEN. And they call themselves brave??? Sheesh! LOL.

Anyways, these are some piccys i took last week, during Mathematics class. =) It's a glimpse of what i do during lessons. Take pics. Hehe

This is half of the class. The bag in grey is my laptop. The bag in black is Tassha's.



This the typical table setting of YoursTruly. Whatever you see here is what i have.



And a typical candid shot of Tassha by the very pro photog, ME!

Hehe. A typical day. What else can you ask for right? Typical larh. Now i have nothing to say. LOL. Other than listening to 91.3FM on my laptop, i have nothing else to do. Sigh. Oh well, shut your windows and wrap yourself with your favourite blanket and enjoy the rain while it lasts through the night. =)

XOXO!

Lana

No piccys again

You must've gotten so darn bored of reading word after word in my plain polka-dotted blog. Well, no worries cause there'll be MORE of them comin' your way. MWAHAHAHA! => Nah, just joking. But, seriously, i seemed to have stop taking random piccys and have deemed lazy to flaunt pics that are not suitable for the eyes of the public. LOL. So thus, ignore the absence of pics but the presence of boring words. =>

This whole week has been quite the rollercoaster ride. But i won't delve any deeper cuz' it's not only YOU that's been reading my blog now. =) *coughMYMANcough* Welcome my love! Hehe. Anyways, besides realising that i have MISERABLY failed my Engineering Maths II at a whopping mark of 31/100, school went fine and as usual. All that craziness, teasing and gossiping. LOL. I have 2 projects pending with Tassha, hopefully to be done with ASAP. And i have yet to add "Visiting Niece and Nephews every Friday of the week" into my schedule. LOL. Lil' sis told me she has no religious classes on Friday, i have no lessons after 1, so there's no reason why we won't go. Hehe. Tassha, we have the same schedules now. =) And yes, i just got back from their house. More like a visit than baby-sitting, but i did help around with the littlest one - my ultimate favourite, Ummar Kayyum. Ah! Love~!

Oh, ytd i met my beloved for the usual date but instead of going to the bustling heart of Singapore, we went to have a heartfelt breakfast at White Sands. We ate MacDonalds. Haha. It was my selfish request because it's been SO long since i ate there. And being my beloved that he is, he followed and ate with me. =) Hehe. After that we rode over to Pasir Ris Park and spent hours sitting on a park bench talking about everything. It's like i got to know him deeper than i thought! I know more of his family, he know more about mine... Ya-da, ya-da. =) You get the picture.

Oh yeah, i think i might be allergic. Mild i guess. I have some sort, AND I MEAN SOME SORT, of rashes on my precious face. I don't know how or when it started but my mom, also being allergic, told me to stop eating peanuts. Great, my beloved peanuts are banned from my stomach. She was surprised when she accidentally poked one of those pesky rashes - she was helping me applying cream on my face - and i said "that hurt!" She was like, "You gotta be serious!?" I stared at her and like "Yeah..." Then there she goes talking to me about peanuts having high content of something that, with eating it all the time, affects the skin. Sigh.

Oh well, it's not like i can't eat everything else. Hehe. Righty peeps, sorry for not being online a lot because i've been glued to a game i used to play right now. If anything you wanna tell me, either text me, tag me, pm me on MSN, or comment me on Friendster. =)

XOXO!

Lana

It has come to my attention that i have posted a post that deemed unfair and have been ORDERED to delete the whole post. Hmm... It has also got me thinking "Why should I? I write what i write and whatever happens, i am responsible. Therefore, the least i can do is delete the part where it seemed unfair and forget it ever happened." I felt pretty much offended that i was ORDERED to delete it. I've never been told to do so because who can do that? It's my blog. Gurl, sorry. I guess my assumptions have gone too far this time, so fine. You want me to delete the post: NO. But i will erase all that crap i wrote. Fair enough? Sigh.

Whatever larh. I may have been too straightforward but i guess assumptions are too much to be dealt with by some people. [This post may sound angry but ignore that] So great, now i have lost my blogger momentum and i dont wanna bother reporting what happened today. I already censored as much as i can to make myself sound unbiased but it still appears to be biased. Oh well, oh well. I thought you were still pissed off about everything - i couldn't get you online and you ignored me on Saturday without telling me we're not going out so thus, i assumed you were still mad and those were your feelings. But fine, there's no point getting pissed about things that nobody wanna get done. I don't wanna fight with you [Because if i did, you wouldn't forgive me as easily as you and her forgive each other] but the least you can do is tell me that you don't wanna go out with me, not ignore me the whole day and expect me to understand. Sheesh...

Lana

If you're not Dil or Ida, do not read Orange

OK, first things first...

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!! =) Heheh. I'm sure 01/01/08 treated you well. Y'all must've gone to thousands of New Year parties and boogied til' the wee hours of the morning. I'm sure you've drank enough booze to settle your cravings. I'm sure you've snogged everyone you've brushed shoulders with - OK, not all. But i'm sure you've done your list of New Year's Resolutions! =) Right, right? Well, i didn't. Nope. I didn't. LOL. I don't see the point, really. Yeah sure, you wanna wish things would go this way, things would go that way but you can't predict your future as far as the end of this week. You might say that you're not going out, but in the end you are. You might say you're single but in a few months you will be UN-SINGLE. So, i prefer to leave my resolutions to a minimum, to a few where i know i can do and definitely be accomplished. I'd rather mean what i promised myself, don't you think so too? =)

So here it is:- [Everybody else are giving away their resolutions so why won't i? =p]

1. Take care of my face from the evil ACNE and vicious PIMPLES.
2. Keep my weight below 50kg [I am not sick, i choose to be that way so deal with it]
3. Keep my grades above Cs or Ds.
4. Remember all that i learned in Japanese, French *Coming Soon* and Chinese.
5. Learn to cook [Puasa most probably - bake cookies] =p
6. Be more patient, be more mature, be more prettier =p
7. Love my man even harder since.....
8. Be there for my family always.
9. Force myself to share the family car when bro pass TP test.
10. Grow my hair [Currently In Progress] =)

There you go. Resolutions that i am pretty much sure i can accomplish by the time 2009 arrives. =) Hehe. I'm prepared for 2008, and i pray for more beautiful years to come. Anyways, talking about countdowns, i have a countdown of my own and it ain't pretty. I never wanted it to happen but i guess it's happening... in 6 months time. ='( *sobs* Help...

Sigh. Oh well, take care y'all. =) Have fun in school! LOL

Lana

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