choices the 2nd

8 months.

It was a good 8 months. Had tonnes of fun, no doubt. But nothing comes easy and i've finally experienced what i feared the most. It was no surprise to me when it happened, but i was so frightened. Though i am glad that we talked it through and turned out right.

We're such a.. laid-back couple i dunno if that's even remotely normal these days. Now that we're in 2010, i thought maybe i should rethink about the choices i'm about to make, that might possibly change the way i will live in the future. Now, even though i'm only 21 turning 22, choices these days are getting harder to make, and the consequences are pilling up like there's no tomorrow. We're barely "old" enough - in this case i see people who are 25 and above as old - to handle our own lives without our parents help let alone own a house.. yet here we all are, wondering what, how, and where we're gonna build our adult lives now.

Life is no longer easy, like when we were babies/toddlers/youngsters/adolescents. It's no longer peachy with fluffy clouds or bouncing bunnies or filled with pretty flowers everywhere. Now, it's all about dog-eat-dog, taking every opportunity you can find, work harder than you've ever had, climb the social/professional ladder no matter what the costs.. How sad can life be? Why can't we just get along, be nice to each other, be polite, be gracious, be respectful? Why must the cruelties of life interfere with our goals? Money, sex, backstabbing, lies, deceit, greed.. It's just too sad for me to comprehend how scary my life will get once i'm done studying.

But that fear, has a part to play in Life. Without fear you will not understand your limits, the consequences, or how much you expand your will to wanna try and overcome that fear, and to gain the ultimate prize after years of hard labour. Wouldn't you want that? No man wouldn't refuse sucha feeling.

Wow.. I'm only turning 22 and i'm talking like i'm 30. Urgh.. 30. I FEAR for that more than anything. I cannot imagine seeing myself when i'm 30 years old. OMG. But i do hope when i reach that age, i'm already having a kid of my own :) that'd be awesome beyond splendid. Amazing beyond wonderful. Beautiful beyond breathtaking.

OK! Done. LOL

Take care y'all and God Bless

XOXO!