The side of me that is real

End here.

2010-07-06T10:43:00.002+08:00

As most of you know, I have not been updating my blog. But I have moved to Tumblr.com. Haha.

Visit me!

http://sweet-formality.tumblr.com

And if you have a Tumblog if your own, follow me~

XOXO!

forgiving

2010-04-04T22:12:00.002+08:00

Regrets.

What is it about regrets that moves us, that overwhelms us, that empowers us, that denies our right to comfort ourselves and to tell ourselves that the decision(s) have been made and there's nothing you can do to take it back? So what if the consequences were too hard to handle, or that you were faced with such unfairness from life.

Isn't that Life?

Isn't that just how it is?

Not everything has to go your way - despite what others boldly declare to the world. As much as some people say that they want to create their own path, create their own destiny for themselves.. you gotta wonder: Do you really think God would give us that much power over our lives? That everything, and i mean EVERYTHING is done by Free Will? Sure, we make mistakes; we have our stupid moments, but at every turn don't anyone notice the subtle control in the background? Don't anyone realize that certain choices you make has their consequences? The consequences are the control.

There was a time where i regretted everything i did, and certain times i don't. That was when i got stupid, foolish, self-centered, and bitter. I hurt people; my family, my friends - people who cared about me unconditionally, never leaving my side despite the treatment i gave them. They love me despite the choices i made. Sure they will reminisce and certain grudges resurface, but there's always room for forgiveness. Always. Of course, you can't forgive someone right out of the bat, or a snap of a finger. No, but it's not impossible or illogical. Given time, forgiveness will grow on us and you will one day forget and forgive.

So, i have not regretted the choices i made. Things happen and i have to accept the consequences given to me. If He wishes to punish me, i will gladly accept it, live through it and learn from the mistakes. I will understand why it happened and i will know that i will not repeat the same mistake ever again. I grow stronger this way, and i've never looked back.

So, i forgive u.

notice

2010-03-19T16:53:00.002+08:00

At the last minute my family decides to plan a family vacay (without my father, tho he was the one who planned this). So here i am, in Siloso Beach Resort, Sentosa, enjoying what little view we got - not that we don't have much of a view. So-so i guess. I can see the beach outside the window, and lots of people walking past by. I was expecting a huge crowd down below, but i guess not. Prolly coz of the moody rainfall.

It's been 5 days since that evening when you texted me. As much as it was a shock to me, i guess it was bound to happen - given our rocky situation when March began. Since the first day, i realised we went downhill, fight after fight. I know the pain that you're going through but it's too late now, things have changed and i dont think i can go back to how i was before without remembering the bitter words you said to me - out of anger or not. It was unacceptable and i cannot comprehend how little you cared about me when you said all those things. Even if it was out of anger, it came from you. You were conscious enough to say those things, and it took you 3-4 days just to realise how wrong you were.

It may have been 3-4 days, but within those days i have gotten numb, devoid of emotion i had for you. I do not hate you, but the love i used to have has set sail. It's gone now, and to get it back will prove too difficult - if there was a chance of being back together. It may seem too much to ask but please take care of yourself. I know you can.

It's best that we're out of each other's lives. Maybe with this both of us can breathe easy.

Thank you for everything.

seeing stars

2010-03-15T23:51:00.004+08:00

I looked out my window tonight. The stars were beautiful. They were sparkling like diamonds. I saw the Orion's Belt too.

Sigh..

I wanna stay numb. I dont wanna feel anything. Why am i feeling like everything is caving in on me? Why did it hurt when i saw those stars out tonight?

bitter end

2010-03-14T22:23:00.001+08:00

"We're through. It's over."

period

2010-03-04T10:03:00.002+08:00

It's Thursday, and I'm not looking forward to the next few days that are coming soon.

Things aren't going so well as of this moment, and i can't really tell why it happened, what made it happen, or how it happen. All i can tell is that i am not holding up as well as i should've on my "better" days. Maybe coz the period is adding more pressure into my head and my nerves, so i guess all i'm feeling now is emo.. emo.. angst angst.

It sucks, really. When you plan not to show a hint of emotion to anyone, only to realise it somehow found a way to slip through your tight fists and revealed itself to your closest friends, if not that special someone in your life. I may not be the best person to give advice to sometimes, but i'd love to help anyone who are in need of some TLC. But when it comes to me, most of the time you won't even know i'm going through something because by the time you ask me what's going on, i've settled it a long time ago. And my soul would also be "mended" by then, like it never affected me in the first place.

It sucks more sometimes, that you just don't want any other soul to know but the only thing, the only way to make you feel better, is to tell someone and share your sorrows. I don't want to burden anyone, not even my mother with my minuscule matters. She's got enough on her mind to be burdened by, and hearing mine would not ease her heart in the least. I don't want to tell my friends coz half the time they would stop listening and pretend that they are, or interrupt me and talk about their life which i whole-heartedly listen til the very end. No one really wanna know what i'm going through because it's nothing compared to their BGR stories and family feuds. So why should i wanna share if i know no one would listen?

Right, getting emo again..

Woke up 4 hours too early. Slept 4 hours too short. Had only spoken 2 words ever since 830am, and i prefer to keep it that way. Feel like breaking down every 5 seconds. Charging my phone as of this moment (has been on Silent ever since yesterday, don't ask why) and re-formatting my thumb-drive coz i just feel like cleaning up and erasing things. Oh, and did i mention i erased several photos from my phone?

Yep.

You're not the only one going through shit.

Me to you

2010-03-02T18:56:00.003+08:00

It's not entirely true that what you've given me was an ultimatum, but technically it became one in my eyes. I know full well that it was the right thing to do, and i have to end my selfish reasons and foolish justifications, so that i can change for the better.

You cared enough to share what you thought to me, and i respect what you have said. You mean the world to me and i dont want you to think lowly of me, for i do not think so lowly of you either. You may not believe it but i do want to mend my ways. One thing i shall ask though: do give me time. Old habits die damn hard..

Thank you for caring.

And to my lovely classmates of F706, you've changed me in many ways than one. We were a complete bunch of misfits, no doubt about it, but without the odds and ends of each and every one of our personalities, school life would've been dreadfully boring. I've never tasted a much livelier bunch, a safe bunch, and a good bunch. :)
Tassh, you've been a dear to me and i wish i've been the same to you. :) You're my opposite, my eville alter ego if i could say so ;) heheh. I love you with all my heart sweets, know that to be true. :)
Thank you guys, once again, for accepting me as your friend. See you during Graduation!
God Bless everyone and take care
XOXO

my life this week

2010-02-18T18:41:00.000+08:00

study study study

rest

study study study

game

study study study

sleep

(rewind)

i'm wrapped around your warm finger

2010-02-02T18:36:00.002+08:00

I be a happy girl today. Why? :)

Boyfie texted wishing us Happy 9 months anniversary. AWW! :) Heart u larh!

OK, ciao peeps. Haha. Overly-short post. :s

Take care and God Bless

XOXO!

all's fair in love and war

2010-01-27T15:06:00.004+08:00

Fairness

What is fair in Life? Is it compromise? Is it balance? Or is it cloaked as denial? What IS fair? I have no idea where my religious belief in fairness came from, or spawned out of, but I'm one who is always about fairness and equality - cheesy it is not. I guess it's how i've been raised up when i was younger, or maybe it's coz of how much i want my life to be fair - like i wanted to be treated fairly. If i treat people with utmost fairness, then i wish to be treated with the same respect. Who wouldn't want to receive something of equal calibre, right?

I dunno. Right now i'm wondering if i should react to something that i somewhat refuse to understand or overlook. But if i do react to it, i'm afraid i wouldn't be forgiven, least of all be understood. Maybe i can raise my voice, speak up a little, make known my insecurities? Is that advisable?

PS (to my friend, G): Haiz.. :( chin up, friend. You look horrible. It's like your glow has been stripped completely, and to be honest i kindda missed it. I'm sure there'd be others who'd agree on that. Again, take it easy. *hugs*

Take care y'all and God Bless

XOXO!

drum roll please

2010-01-26T17:00:00.003+08:00

I'M BACK IN BUSINESS, BAYBEH!!!

YES! My computer is back up, ready, cleaned out 100% and running faster than it had years before. Apparently, i had so much junk in my acct i was shocked to see how many things i had to delete. LOL! But now that i have reinstalled everything that i lost during the reformatting, i'm happy and satisfied. :D

Take care y'all and God Bless

XOXO!

to you, G

2010-01-23T21:51:00.002+08:00

Dear friend,

I wish you know how sad i am to see you like this, to know that this friendship has come to a close on such a solemn note. In spite of how little i know you, i know as much that you care alot for the one i love dearly and hold close to my heart. She's amazing, and we both know that. But at times like these, you gotta stay strong no matter what. As i've said before, when the time is right and it calls for it, walk away. Just walk away, rather than diminishing all the wonderful memories you've collected over the past month. I know it's tough, i've been there, i've felt it, and i've grown. I'm here for you, friend, and i'll always be. We won't see you around much anymore, but you know where to reach me. I'm not far away, and i wont bite. Just know that you got me as a friend.

All my love.

never

2010-01-19T17:30:00.003+08:00

Never have i stayed away from someone for so long

Never have i missed my beloved so very much

Never have i wanted to hold him so very tightly

Never have i wanted to smile at him so very widely

Never have i looked for a trace of him with longing eyes

Never have i felt so much love for one person with tears in my eyes

Never have i wished so very hard to see you now

Never have i been so happy to hear you'll be with me soon

Come back to me, like freaking ASAP. I think i'm losing my mind waiting for you for nearly 3 weeks. :'(

All my love

so.. how's me?

2010-01-14T18:56:00.003+08:00

One would ask: how this blogger is? Why isn't she updating crazy things like she used to? Why isn't she posting tonnes of pictures? Why isn't she reporting every single damn event that happened in her life?

Well, truth is people i am not the type who'd go all out about the privacies of my life. I have boundaries i refuse to cross (i'm sure i've said this a thousand times before) so please, if you're hoping thru and asking all these questions, stop. HAHA.

Anyways, i am a-ok for those who are still too stubborn and is still wondering about me. :) School going great, i'm still sleepy as ever (my entire fault), i haven't seen my dearest boyfie for nearly 2 weeks, and i am dreading the Final Exams coming this February. I have nothing new and professional to wear to my "interview" that's being graded (part of the curriculum). And.. i am planning to continue my studies after my Diploma :) I'd love the luck and blessing right now y'all! HAHA.

OK, short short post. Take care and God Bless

XOXO!

choices the 2nd

2010-01-06T11:02:00.003+08:00

8 months.

It was a good 8 months. Had tonnes of fun, no doubt. But nothing comes easy and i've finally experienced what i feared the most. It was no surprise to me when it happened, but i was so frightened. Though i am glad that we talked it through and turned out right.

We're such a.. laid-back couple i dunno if that's even remotely normal these days. Now that we're in 2010, i thought maybe i should rethink about the choices i'm about to make, that might possibly change the way i will live in the future. Now, even though i'm only 21 turning 22, choices these days are getting harder to make, and the consequences are pilling up like there's no tomorrow. We're barely "old" enough - in this case i see people who are 25 and above as old - to handle our own lives without our parents help let alone own a house.. yet here we all are, wondering what, how, and where we're gonna build our adult lives now.

Life is no longer easy, like when we were babies/toddlers/youngsters/adolescents. It's no longer peachy with fluffy clouds or bouncing bunnies or filled with pretty flowers everywhere. Now, it's all about dog-eat-dog, taking every opportunity you can find, work harder than you've ever had, climb the social/professional ladder no matter what the costs.. How sad can life be? Why can't we just get along, be nice to each other, be polite, be gracious, be respectful? Why must the cruelties of life interfere with our goals? Money, sex, backstabbing, lies, deceit, greed.. It's just too sad for me to comprehend how scary my life will get once i'm done studying.

But that fear, has a part to play in Life. Without fear you will not understand your limits, the consequences, or how much you expand your will to wanna try and overcome that fear, and to gain the ultimate prize after years of hard labour. Wouldn't you want that? No man wouldn't refuse sucha feeling.

Wow.. I'm only turning 22 and i'm talking like i'm 30. Urgh.. 30. I FEAR for that more than anything. I cannot imagine seeing myself when i'm 30 years old. OMG. But i do hope when i reach that age, i'm already having a kid of my own :) that'd be awesome beyond splendid. Amazing beyond wonderful. Beautiful beyond breathtaking.

OK! Done. LOL

Take care y'all and God Bless

XOXO!

gbye 2009.. Hello 2010

2010-01-04T19:36:00.002+08:00

2010

A decade before i was stressing myself out with PSLE.

A decade before i was fantasizing on which Secondary School i'd be going to.

A decade before i was thinking of the perfect sec sch sweetheart.

HAHAHA.

Short post. Nothing interesting to report, really. Sad but true. Just that school's been.. tough, but manageable i guess? I just can't wait to leave this school with my DIP. I do wish i get it :(

Take care y'all and God Bless

XOXO!

Winner is... Sezaire - wait, WTH?!

2009-12-29T16:55:00.004+08:00

Warning: This post will be full of text, no pictures of any sort, and it might offend some people. This blogger, however, do not have any intentions to offend, hurt, or cross any lines with anyone who knows her.

Salutations! OK, so i'm supposed to be working on my report right now but there is something i've been meaning to get out of my chest ever since the Results show aired on Saturday. As you all know, Sezaire won Singapore Idol Season 3. Some may think he deserved it, while others were sure Sylvia would win. I hadn't been following the show like i used to when i was younger, but when i watched her sing on the finale i was sure she would nail it because all three judges were beyond impressed with her performance, her voice and her talent. Even Ken Lim hinted that she was the better singer, and the deserving winner for this season. But, to no surprise, Sezaire (the underdog dubbed by my own Momsie) won. I literally screamed at the top of my lungs. Not in happiness. Not with cheer. But in complete, and utter shock.

Seriously. Like, WHAT THE HELL???

Three seasons straight all the - assuming - PRs/foreigners were always getting the lowest votes, the harsh cruelty of the patriotic fans... I mean what is this?? You wanna import American Idol to Singapore: OK. You wanna open the auditions to EVERYONE: OK. So comes the foreigners from all walks of life (Australians, M'sians [i think], etc.) But when they were chosen to be the finalist and were depending on the people, which in this case are the SINGAPOREANS, to vote, they hardly get enough to save them for the next round. And why??? BECAUSE THEY'RE NOT TRUE-BLUE SINGAPOREANS??? I mean, WHAT THE HELL! You auditioned them.. you welcomed them.. you supported them.. but NO ONE seems to wanna give them the chance they deserve because they are NOT born-Singaporean. -____- OMG we are SOOO fair.

URGH. i was so freaking mad!

FREAKING, OVERLY MAD!

If you people dont wanna have a true-blue Singaporean to be your Singapore Idol, DO NOT audition them in the first place! DO NOT invite them over here. DO NOT manipulate them. DO NOT give them hopes that foreign talent ARE ABLE to win! GEEZ!!!! OMG, my blood is boiling as of this moment and i am not kidding. What kind of behaviour is this?? And now i know they gonna have another season -.- well have fun then. I WONT be surprised if the foreign talents in the top 12/13 get voted off even before they can PROVE their worth in the show.

Eh, please larh.. Don't act hospitable and then after that go patriotic and vote for the truest person - the true-blue Singaporean. So what if Sylvia is born-Philippines? She's got the chops, the makings of a wonderful singer/entertainer. You gave her hope. You gave her motivation. And then you just drop her like she was nothing because she's NOT Singaporean???? Geez! Come on, seh.. -.-

Maybe the people who voted WERE blind. Poor Ken gotta waste his saliva all night saying to vote wisely; not based on looks or charisma alone, but by their sheer talent.

You really think you made the right choice?

I don't think so.

satellite heart

2009-12-24T18:42:00.002+08:00

Elo-elo! :D

So, as i promised, the new 'do!

I love it!

XOXO!

5 straight hours :)

2009-12-22T20:44:00.002+08:00

Salutations, my fellow readers. Welcome to me-wittle blog. :D

Once again, i have come to leave y'all hanging and wondering how i am with stuffs thats going on in my life. Much to your dismay, i'm a private person - depending on the things i keep private and close to my heart. But there are things i cannot hold in. Things that i'm so proud of. Things that deserve to be told, shared and seen by many :) And those are of my pals, and my beloved family. Some may disagree with the fact that i disclose many things in here, but i know the lines drawn between what's private and what's public.

Anyways, the final year peeps are dreading the day when we gotta go back to the place that is TP. 2 weeks just isn't enough for us to completely lie down on our beds, think about things that we never thought we would, and begin indulging in our past as a crazy bunch of misfits. :) Despite being like a dysfunctional family, we were still a family.

I'm gonna miss everyone once we OFFICIALLY graduate from school! Gosh, i can see it now... the tears, the flashes from the cameras, the tight hugs and speeches, the air-kisses and the shaking of hands, the pride btwn student and teacher and parent(s), and the certificates given to every single one of us. Wow.. as much as i fear for the emotions i will be having on that very day, the relief i will feel once i step out of that school will be humongous that i think, that sort of emotion, will be the biggest i've ever felt in my life. Period.

Sigh.. i'm graduating at age 22. -.- old.

Picture time! :D

Izyana and her new hair-cut :D lovin' it babe!

I've saved my long, LONG hair for so long i can't remember when i started keeping it. I'm gonna miss this hair coz people: listen up! I'm gonna cut it, have bangs (maybe) and sport on a new 'do! :D Yes. ME! And being ME, i shall post a pic of me after i snip my tresses for everyone to see!
'Til then, take care y'all, and God Bless :)
XOXO!

years i will always cherish. friends i will always remember

2009-12-07T16:25:00.004+08:00

Month: December

Week: 2

Occasion: Term Test

The last and final set of term test that all 3rd yrs will be doing for this week. And hopefully, no one's gotta repeat another semester and do another 6 mths of dreary classes and rules.

And after that, Final Year Examinations.

A month or so later, GRADUATION.

Sigh.. Now that i think about it, which i have to admit, is becoming much like a constant thought than a mere event that we're naturally bound to feel exhilarated about, i feel pretty sad that we're gonna leave this school - FINALLY! - but still, no more funny shit in school.. no more looking at beautiful people.. no more ditching classes and having hefty lunch.. no more bubbly friends to chillax with.. :(

I'm very much gonna miss all that. Gonna miss my lovely class. Miss my bestie of 3 yrs - praying for more to come. Sigh...

LOVE YOU ALL!!!!
XOXO!

Booooooyahhh

2009-11-30T01:04:00.006+08:00

No excuses why i left my blog like that. Some may know, some may not. But those who do, "PIPE DOWN!" :D Hah, nahh kidding. :) Not that i'm busy with things actually. I daresay i am not busy with anything at all. Only thing is that i went out on Friday and Saturday due to Hari Raya Haji (I hope my Muslim friends enjoyed their two/three days!) And yes, thats the reason why i'm finally back to blogging. Also, it's coz i miss blogging and i have tonnes of pictures that have yet to be seen :)

So enjoy!

Good breakfast. Lots of laughs. LOL

I had a blast, larh. :D

My kampung that i kindda grew up in when my bro and i were younger. I dont really know how to explain what i felt when i came back after so many years. Maybe i was so used to seeing my great-grandmother sitting on her chair by the wooden door, smiling so happily at the sight of us. :) sigh..

I had no part in her new-found fascination with Twilight. It all began, once upon a time, with StarHub cable TV and a channel called Star Movies. OK fine. Simply put, she watched the movie and her eyes were so glued, her attention was solely on the movie lmao *proud* And she gets so giggly reading some of the scenes, it's so funny! LOL!

:) First picture was taken, kindda like a long long time ago. But somehow, i got lazy trying to update them into my blog, and adding them into my facebook. So.. LOL. Then the consecutive ones are from Haji :)
Oh, and now my Mom and Sis got new hand-phones for themselves. -.- hmph. Sis got LG Ice Cream ;) and mom got Nokia 5530 XpressMusic phone. :O! So currently, her phone is like the bestest of the best in our family. HMPH! LOL
Take care y'all, and God Bless.
PS: Time to study! Term test is a week away. OMG. :s
XOXO!

Reporting, Ma'am!

2009-11-14T17:07:00.006+08:00

Weekly Report (LOL)

Been a tough week, i had to admit. But i guess that's just how life works. Again, i had to remember that maybe Allah was trying to test my patience. LOL. I dont blame Him larh. Maybe i deserved the agony for something i did before? Hmm.. Maybe. Anyways, whatever happened happened and as much agony and pain i went through, the minute i saw him all the trouble just.. simply put, it just disappeared. I didn't have the heart to discuss what had happened, but leading up to the goodbyes, i guess it wasn't worth bringing it up. We'll just have to forgive - but no, i shall never ever forget.

Anyways, aside the wee-troubles i got, Monday 9/11/09 was supposed to be spent going to Singapore Science Center to view the new Body Worlds. But when i was getting ready - i was seriously dolled up, like no joke yknow lol - Mom started laughing from inside her toilet. My window is very very near to her toilet window and thus whatever happened inside there could clearly be heard from my room. -.- uhm, disgusting much? LOL. Anyways, when i heard Mom laughing i went to her bedroom and asked what's going on. She said SSC closed on Monday and i literally went "-_- what????" and then i looked at myself, my Dad looked at me up and down and just shrugged his shoulders. lol. Mom went out of toilet and looked at me. She then asked, "How? Still gonna go out?" And i was like "Of course larh! Look at me!" I was wearing my fav maxi-dress and black blouse under it and damn right i look good. LMAO. So then i suggested going to the Zoo since it's been a damn long time that i've been there last. But i kept thinking that sis had been there loads of times. Then silence fell on everyone and eventually Dad told us to get ready. Me being the driver, i was apprehensive on where we're gonna go but Dad just said go to town and he'll lead me from there. And he lead me to the URA building where all the future plans for Singapore were laid out in small models for everyone to see! They were so detailed it's insane once you see it. I didn't take pics of it coz i was txting boyfie. LOL

Oh and we went to Arab Street before that to have damn early lunch. LOL. Expensive, but all right. :) After URA, and when the clock strikes 130pm, we head off to Asian Civilisations Museum at Clarke Quay! :D Parked the car at The Parliament House and walked along the canal all the way to ACM. Itching for new "material" for blog, i snapped pics under the bright bright sun. LOL

We went to all the exhibits inside ACM and i was pleasantly amazed at the Philippines culture and explored their love for Christianity. It was a little weird for my family to visit a completely Christian exhibit but it was for knowledge and i didn't mind all that much that i'm surrounded by statues and words that i could not understand. There was even a small area where a pew (long wooden chair) was placed in front of a "shrine". Very shocking. LOL. And then we went to other smaller exhibits bathed in barely-bright orange light, went to the Muslim exhibit on the West side of Earth. I love looking at Arabic writings - they're very pretty. :) And the day being so cold we all craved for something warm and good and somehow Mom suggested Delifrance at Funan. Halfway there it started pouring very hard, but we managed to run and shelter ourselves before crossing the roads. We sat at Delifrance and laughed about stuff, and again, in the light light rain, we head back to the car and went for home. :)

Tuesday and Wednesday was schoooooooool and me and Tassh were stressing our butts off trying to get our project done. She was fixing the codes, i was doing the manual. But on Wednesday was the icing on the long-done cake. :D She finally fixed it!!! I so heart you, me-love. Muah! So now we're left with making slides for presentation and live demo, finishing up the manual and touching up the codes. I do wish we both have good grades for this.. Sigh.

Thursday :) Pretty Tassh~

Then when the day was over, i gave her a slobbery kiss goodbye - HAH! no larh, kidding ;) - and walked off for home since i dont have anymore classes after 3pm every Thursday. And also coz even on that day i still felt very very darn upset. But thanks to Dil, Tassh, and lovely lovely sweetcheeks Yana for talking and listening to my depressing tales. :) Bless your heart and soul for being such good listeners. You warm me up all the time, me-loves.
Today :) Oh bless today. I got up at 730am, all droopy-eyed and groggy, got ready - pretty much dolled myself up once again - and waited until 825am to leave for home and meet le boyfie for good prata breakfast. I've been craving one ever since i began to crave it. LOL. But the place wasn't even open yet so we waited and sat around until 10am when i noticed the lights on their menu was on. Me being so darn hungry, happily bounced off to the area and ordered my Onion Pratas. :D We talked quite alot, he did too, which is a good sign to me. We kept asking each other what we're thinking about. LOL. Then we walked back to my place and sat under the block for more talking and teasing. LOL.
Short 4 hr meet, but good enough. He said he hoped we can meet next week :) Yay! Oh oh! And i can't wait to go to Sentosa with him and 3 boys + 1 gurl LOL. Dunno whether to bring extra threads or not. Hmm.. See how larh. If they dont mind me kepo-ing and inviting myself over. Hahah.
All right. I guess that sums up EVERYTHING of this week. Pretty long huh. Well, pent up words in my head. I sound pretty good here too. ;) HAHAHA.
Take care y'all, and God Bless.
XOXO!
PS: God bless the rain :) and November :D

"

2009-11-09T00:17:00.002+08:00

Revelations.

It can be pretty frightening sometimes but it'll always be there, ready, for you to face it whether you like it or not. It can be an eye-opener, or a heart-breaker but revelations are revelations. And their job is to make you see what's going on, what's about to happen, and who it's gonna happen to.

I've unraveled a revelation not two days ago. I didn't expect it at all, but somehow in my heart i do. When i finally found out, upsetting as it was, it was like a relief, in some weird way. It's good to know some revelations sometimes, because in truth you gotta hear some answers to certain questions that you've asked yourself in your life. Whether it's about your life as a person, your family, or your friends. Revelations reveals some of the things to you. Bad or good, it's up to you to decide whether you'd listen and take it in, or reject it in its entirety.

I'm trying to settle things within me. Certain things that are very unethical if i don't stop thinking about it right about now. Maybe i can't move on for some unknown reason? Maybe i'm stubborn about it without even realising it? But one thing's for sure, i've finally closed open questions that'd been lingering in my head for months now and i think it's high-time i stop. It will hurt people i love if i keep sulking about it. It's nowhere near healthy.

OK done rambling.

Take care and God Bless

XOXO

good times, good people

2009-11-02T23:39:00.002+08:00

Dear everyone,

OK, so i know i have been ignoring my blog for a very LONG time. Reason being i was too held up with things outside of school and playing games *cough* LOL Well, lots of things happened and i will not get into too much detail concerning those things, for some reasons that won't be disclosed. :) However, all that will be replaced by pictures of what i've been doing for the weeks that i did not report.

Enjoy!

29/10/09

Dad went to New York for a conference so that leaves me being the only driver, and a proud one at it too ;) So, of course, i brought the car along to school. Hehe. When school was over i picked up my Mom and Sis and drove off to Home Team Academy where a ceremony was waiting for all the parents and family members of happy NS-men involved in their POP (Passing-Out-Parade). We came at 4.30, while everyone else came later than stated on the invitation card. Me and Mom were pissed -.- LOL

OK, so the ceremony was amazing! Every one of those boys were at their best, despite two who fainted halfway through the parade but alls good when they proudly marched off. Too bad for their supporters coz some were kindda calling out to them, knowing well those boys can say a word back at them. LOL

Bro was cool in his uniform :)

Then when it was all over and we met at the carpark, Mom called out to Bro and when i turned to my right to see him he immediately opened his arms wide and hugged the life outta me. :O! I was shocked, but it was a very pleasant surprise coz we're both not shy to hug it out when situation calls for it. :) I was tempted to kiss his face but nah.. poor boy will be hounded by watchful officer-eyes. LOL

Oh, and he's permanently deployed at BEDOK! :D

Mom dubbed her Korean school teacher -.- Aper jek.

Mom, Sis and Bro having refreshments

Photo-taking sessions using my trusty Cooky. LOL

Ahhh proud of him.

Angry with the stickers we were forced to have on our chests so we pasted it on Sis's face. LOL

Waiting for Bro to come back so we can head for home. :)

31/10/09

Me and Yana had been planning a very very long time for our NS boys to meet and have a date together. We all wanted to go to Escape Theme Park but partly because of the admission and the weather we finally decided to have late lunch, hang out and have dinner at ECP! :D The dinner was very very impromptu and it was decided btwn me and boyfie. LOL

We all had so much fun and laughs. We should do this again, Yana me love. :) *hugs*

Yana :) So cute! Hehe

Finally got pic of me and him. :) heh love the lighting.

01/11/09

My family have lots of traditions we cooked up during the years. One, in particular, was to celebrate ANYONE's birthday with a big bang.. well, it's just lavish dinner and good laughs. LOL. But coz Dad wasn't around, me and Mom planned to celebrate my brother's 20th birthday at my grandparents place so that my aunt and my grandparents could join in the fun :) We ordered pizza and kfc for dinner and aunt bought chocolate cake. :D Best~

His birthday was on 02/11/09 but coz aunt was working that day we celebrated it earlier :)

At this point in time, Pizza already arrived and everyone got hungry coz of the lovely smell that came from the boxes. So mom and aunt glued themselves to the window grille and watched the numbers on the LED screen by the lift rise and fall, hoping it'd be our KFC guy. HAHA!

Pizza, cake and Cincao (sp?)

Patiently waiting.

Birthday boy!

"Nak makan.. Nak makan.." <-- Sis nyer pasal. LOL She broke into a dance, oi!

When Sis was younger, i used to do that to her face and just stare at her eyes. They're so cute up close i could just laugh at her. :)

Proud Mommy :)

Siblings :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! :)
- End -
:) See? Busy kan? LOL. OK, so this week would prolly be busy for me coz i have to come back to school early for MP work. And then the weekends.. :( Boyfie said he'll be confined for the wkend and won't know when he'll be out until the very last minute. Sigh..
Oh wells, take care y'all and enjoy your November!
God Bless :)
XOXO!

start afresh

2009-10-19T23:27:00.002+08:00

Been busy lately, up til Sunday. LOL. Hectic, if i could say so myself but it turned out a-OK. It wasn't so bad, until some makcik and pakciks came up to my Mom and asked about me - and then their recommendations came in like wildfire.

"Ahh.. Cucu saya tinggal di Australia tau. Blaja kat sane jugak.. Best kan pat Australia?"

"Dah ade boyfriend, awak?"

Amboi, one after another seh. Amacam~ It's so not funny -.- My parents can still play around with them, imagining until so far ahead. Me, trying to be polite, just smiled. HAIZ.

Then when it was all over, Mom confided with my grandmother and said that almost everyone asked her when I gonna get married. Tau plak complain. I've already warned/threatened/reminded her constantly (see, i stressed the word) that i gonna get married between 27-29, 29 being the max. I dont wanna get married when i'm 30...

OMG THIRTY. >.<

Can you imagine me being 30? Damn right, i can't.

Anyways, tomorrow's the start of a new day and age. Will be separated from beloved Tassh for 6 mths. :( Very upsetting. But we'll definitely catch up during lectures and lunch. :D We plan to find work together too! Yay!

OK, here's where i'll end. Wanna play game. LOL

Take care y'all and God Bless

XOXO!

make it stop, please

2009-10-12T21:16:00.002+08:00

I dunno what's going on with me right now. I wish i could just slap myself awake and stop feeling pathetic, sad, hopeless, hurt, and confused.

I've talked, to a few. Some managed to calm me down.. And i thought i had it done and over with, but with a snap of a finger i'm back again, crying. Crying coz i'm stressed out. Crying coz i miss him so much. Crying coz of practically everything.

I hate this.

This sucks.

PS: It's not PMS.

visiting ; coffee ; bugs!

2009-10-08T21:05:00.003+08:00

Visit to Tassh's place [07/10/09]

& coffee at Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf

(Well, yours truly kindda got 2 coffees)

Tassh ;D

Me!

Pure Caramel Frapp. Loooveee it! ;)At this point i had no idea there was a bug - or something - in my drink, until i inspected it out of habit and just checked my drink. So when i was sure it was something that's NOT supposed to be in my drink, i spoke to the manager, nicely - duh! - and asked if i could get another one. She wasn't pissed at me, coz i wasn't being difficult. :D And i got another one! LOL

Posing away~

Kindda like the lighting here, too :) And coz i adjusted the settings on my phone so yay!

The music was good too, until they changed it to oldies and i got bored -.-''

So pretty without make-up.. Oh, if only yours-truly had the same privilege

This is my new frapp. LOL

Woops. ;)

She's dying to have moustache, is why she made it using her hair.

Cheese~

Very cautiously drinking my new drink. LOL

Her idea.Right after that we cracked up laughing so hard! LOL

Me looking fairly constipated. Fairly. LOL
[End]
I didn't take pics of her place coz i think that'd be damned rude. Her mom was amazing. :D Loved her vegetarian-style Mee Rebus. Sweet, tangy, damnnnn good :) Then coz Tassh wanted coffee off we went to DTE and lepak-ed there for a good 30 mins or so and then headed for home. Hehe.
Had a txt from boyfie at 1710 hours. Happy gurl i be. ;) I wait for his txt, he waited for mine.. he surrendered and txted me first! :D Double-happy gurl~
But now he quiet, so prolly batt died or he had to do night PT. poor boy :(
Anyways, 3.2's coming. Some of us just can't wait to put aside the annoying proj and just get on with some stressful studying! Haiz.
Take care y'all and God Bless.
Short post, i know. LOLz
XOXO!

black-outs ; awooooo

2009-10-05T15:52:00.003+08:00

Power-Trip @ TP 2009

At 1.15pm, while everyone was inside the lab minding their own business:

Phyna - watching vid.

Chener - texting and chatting on MSN

Tassh - was about to show me a stand-up comedian's vid

Me - waiting for her to show me the vid

When all of a sudden my screen went blank, the lights in the lab shuts off and Phyna and Chener screamed like they just saw a ghost. :O Then we looked around, realised the office beside our lab was dark too and found out that the whole floor was dark. So we stayed outside the lab, hung around, moaning and whining, and eventually went home at 2.40pm since the lights still didn't come on.

Anyways, being me, with LG Cooky in hand, began snapping pics. LOL. Then the gurls joined in~

Enjoy ;)

What the lab looks in the dark, from the outside. Freaky uh.

From the inside. So dark :s

Just stood outside, chatting.

The only boys that was with us.

The office. Dark too. LOL

My partner -.- LOL

Nice legs. Insured?

Bored.

I kindda like rainy days coz it gives the perf light when snapping pics :)

Dunno larh those two gurls trying to be tall -.-''

Me loike~

Still waiting~
[End]

As i've said in my previous post, i was busy for the whole week. Like i really didn't have enough time to sleep for full 10 hours :x LOL! But it was worth it tho, waking up early on Sunday morning especially. At least boyfie had no problem waking up at 7am. I did :x But we still managed to meet up. Altho.. there was one moment where it got me blushing and feeling darn bimbo. When i was at home getting ready, he txted me saying that it'd be better if we meet at the MRT station. So i said OK and i confidently went to the station, tapped my card and waited upstairs at the platform. Sat there for 10 mins and txted him saying i didn't see him anywhere and i'm already here. He txted back asking where i was and said to meet him at the BUS STOP. i was like.. "huh?" then i read back his previous txt and sure enough he said BUS STOP opp. MRT station -.-'' And pretending, but failed, that i made a mistake i just avoided his question and hurried off to where he was. When i told him my bimbotic mistake he made a face at me and laughed. LOL

Anyways, MAC breakfast was good. we talked about his ippt. Haiz. Then after heavy breakfast, we walked to pasir ris park and sat for a good 2 hrs until we had to leave since he needed time to pack his things for camp. I wish we had more time, and no deadlines to meet. Haiz. Oh, and here's him! :D All botak and clean lolz.

Silau arh the place. LOL
Take care and God Bless
XOXO!

last chance for one last dance

2009-10-03T02:22:00.002+08:00

My Hari Raya 2009
OK, i know like these pics are damn damn late but i didn't have any nice nice pics - in my opinion - to post. And now that i have, and i'm in sucha horribly good mood, i'm gonna post some of my pics.
Enjoy!

1st day

At Gramp's place

Sigh. Skinny brother.

2nd day.Too tall sister.

Sedondong.

Too cute little niece, Najwah :)

My 30 nieces and nephews - last i check was 30. Some are missing of course.

My place with the IFC convoy - 30/09/09Enjoy~

Aif. LOLz. Since Azim's place been asking to take pic with me. Woah! LOL

Kayyum and me :DOpen House - 02/10/09 Afiqah's place.

Dah pandai~

I like this one ;)

*cough*

[End]
This whole week is/was jam-packed for me! Monday and Tuesday spent at school doing project. Wednesday, the whole of wed, was spent with IFC-mates for jln raya. Thursday went out with mom, granny and aunt for jln raya too. Friday went to school, came home and went out for jln raya to one house. Woah~ Many jln raya~
(Planned to meet boyfie that night but couldn't because of the open house. So cancelled and changed to Saturday. But..)
Saturday i gotta go to Johore for jln raya, again. Haiz! So cancelled on boyfie, AGAIN! :( He invited me to watch him and his band go jamming. The timing was so right but then couldn't coz we're going to Johore late in the afternoon.. :( Haiz..
Then Sunday lak! :D Boyfie and I had a long conversation and we finally planned to meet in the morning for breakfast! Yay! Since i dont have anything on for the whole of Sunday except for meeting boyfie. ;)
OK, update done. Eyelids droopy. Time to ZZZz.
Take care ya'll and God Bless
XOXO!

spike that drink

2009-09-28T21:32:00.003+08:00

Spontaneous Evening with the 3NsPictures taken using LG Crystal GD900Courtesy of Nigel Sim.
(He's pretty well-known here in my blog)

Beautiful shot, really. Salute. ;)

Prettiest shot evahh.. Excluding me. :x

Drinks were spiked. They had too much energy. I didnt. :D

[End]
OK, be prepared everyone. I've been meaning to bring this up but i just couldn't find the right words to express my indifference.
So. I hate it when people ask me this ONE simple question:
"So.. How's life?"
I get so angry whenever that question is directed to me. I dunno why. It's been going on for quite a while now and only certain people have that particularly bad habit of asking that with everyone they know. It's either they ran out of good questions to ask a long-lost friend, or they're just ready to compare lives and see who's got it bad. Thats just how i see it, i know it's far from the truth but i just hate that question.
What're you trying to imply? I mean really? Are you trying to wonder who got it bad, or good? Are you trying to be polite - because i dont feel the question as polite. I really dont. I just dont get it.
(Everyone's open to clarify this peculiar question with me so just tag on my tagboard)
Anyways, when being asked that question, i get a sense of annoyance, and i get defensive. I know most people dont mean to pry, and most are just being polite, but really.. Why ask that?? Why can't you ask a better question like:
"So, how've you been doing?"
Isn't that sucha nicer question to hear and ask? To me, asking how my life is is like asking me a rhetorical question. How else do you think Life is to everyone else in this world? There are bad things, good things, the mediocre.. what more do you wanna hear and know? Look at me, i'm holding up just right. I deal with the problems i face with whatever willpower i got in me, conclude it, and move on. I do not blame God, i do not blame my parents, i do not blame how i was brought up. I blame the choices i make, and the reasons i used to justify myself. I blame me for the bad things that happen to ME. What you do to others will just come back to you two-fold. Dont think you can get away with ANYTHING on Earth.
No one gets away with anything.
So think again when asking the people's most favourite question:
"So.. How's life?"
Will stop ranting. Will continue slaving away. Haiz.
To my beloved botak-head of a man, stop eating fried chicken wings and thighs and rice, eat something else, love. Lolz.
To Ian who's booking out this Fri. One word, dude. YANA. :)
To everyone else who's enjoying their much-deserved holidays: enjoy it well and hard :D
Hope Monday didn't turn out so bad for y'all. Take care and God Bless.
XOXO!

a glimpse of my fixation

2009-09-27T01:07:00.003+08:00

The sound of crashing waves on the pale, sandy beach startled me and I turned from the darkness that I appeared from. Confused for a moment I looked at my surroundings, questioning where I was. I raised my head to stare at the palest of blue skies I’ve ever seen, at the tall trees that shadowed the lush grass beneath my bare feet, and finally to the faraway cargo ships that stayed still and unmoving. With a furrowed brow, I took a step forward and watched the waves crash onto the shores again, causing white foam to form a line on the sand. I took another step forward. A gust of wind blew past me, swirling me about, ruffling my hair, giving me a whiff of an unfamiliar scent that hung in the crisp air. I inhaled once.
It smelt fruity.
I looked about, not knowing what I was looking for. I couldn’t find any fruits lying about, or any other people besides me for that matter.
“Where am I?”
The sun shone brighter now and I raised my hand to shelter my eyes from the sweltering heat. It burned my skin a little since I realised I was wearing a simple white linen shirt and jeans. I walked towards the shore and touched the waves that crashed and swallowed my feet. It was cool. I raised my head from watching the foam around my feet and looked at my surroundings again, slowly concluding, finally, where I am.
“This is Changi Beach…” I muttered.

This is just a taste of what i've been working on, irregularly, unfortunately. I really wish i had the opportunity to pursue my biggest of dreams, and that is to write a novel that i will cherish and love, and that my friends and family could be proud of; to say that I had written this. That i accomplished something in my life. That i am a writer.

It's not completed yet. Still stuck with some plots to slip into my "project". i'm hoping this will be a breakthrough for me because it's difficult to write with a local scene in mind. i have huge, beautiful scenes that are more suitable for the middle of the story - which is pretty much typical of me since i'm sucha huge sucker for heartbreaking drama in a story. i actually indulge in separations, and the reasons for separations, and then to read on on how they managed to pull thru and stick together despite the odds. i like plots like that. LOL.

Anyways, it's a Sunday. Will be expecting people to come. Wont be going out prolly. :( Sighs.

I miss you, all the time, MFBR. Thinking of you always and always, and more of it.

Take care, everyone. And God Bless.

XOXO!

sighs. sucks.

2009-09-25T15:39:00.003+08:00

cancelled plans sucks.

plans that dont go smoothly sucks.

plans that ended badly sucks.

plans that dont give me you sucks.

being disappointed sucks.

coffee, scents, cutie-pies

2009-09-23T19:50:00.002+08:00

23rd Sept 2009 - Wednesday

Location: Changi Airport, Singapore

Reason: Lepak jek larhh.. Aper slh nyer.

(LOL)

[End]
Missing you always, dearest MFBR. Hope you're doing fine.
Take care y'all and God Bless
XOXO!
PS: Download this song that i'm in love with now!
Title: Two is Better than OneArtiste(s): Boys like Girls feat. Taylor Swift

I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life

And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, we're leaving

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

Two is better than one

i'm truly sorry

2009-09-21T22:38:00.004+08:00

Dear MFBR,

To the one i love most, i wish i was there when the news was given to you. I wish i was there to lend a shoulder, or a listening ear, to you; or provide some words of sympathy. Oh, i wish i could've held you close and told you everything would be OK. It must've been scary to you, and it must've been sucha shock. I've lost people i've known too, but i've never been thru what you just did. I wish i knew better things to say than just "take it easy" or "i'm so sorry". I wish i was there to support you. I wish i could've seen you and shown you how sorry and sad i am. Oh, dear love, i wish i'd hugged you before you left..

From,

NbB

i heart u~

2009-09-19T00:40:00.004+08:00

heart heart heart heart,

heart heart heart heart,

HEART HEART HEART HEART,

my one and only,

MFBR!

sad

2009-09-18T12:18:00.002+08:00

RIDICULOUS Food War btwn Asian countries

After reading the stupid article i got so mad i was undeniably boiling. When i heard it in the news i got so sick i didn't wanna listen to it any further. I also heard it from momsie and i just got mad at how pathetic this "war" can be. Fighting over the rights of Asia's famous and beloved dishes? Please, go find something else to write an article on. They're all big freaken excuses - reasons to bring forth hate onto their people and create senseless disputes btwn countries. It's disgusting, pathetic, pitiful and a huge freaken waste of time. Why spend it on yelling into the media about "claiming back our hijacked dishes" when you can use the time to save poor people from starvation? Geez, stupid fools. And they call themselves ministers. Crying out loud they're not fit to be ministers at all in my opinion.

And seriously...

HIJACKED DISHES?!

HIJACKED DISHES, you say?!!!

OMG!

And really, what makes you think they really do belong to YOU?! Please larh!

And the story about M'sia and Indonesia and the fight about claiming rights on a traditional, very well-known dance. O.M.G! Please larh.. nothing better to do is it? I dont get it. I really dont. And i am so ashamed that they're a Malay-majority community, making sucha huge fuss over something so damn small. Takde keje lain ker per. I really am sorry if i ever offend anybody concerning this post, and i am trying to be unbiased and fair as possible. BUT I CAN'T! Doesn't anybody see how ridiculous this "war" is? NO! I freaken dont. So yes, thank God i am a Singaporean. Thank God for our habits on saving face first than free will and honour. Think larh people, like seriously. What's the use? What's the point? Melayu same melayu.. tak patot eh gado2 cam gini.

Pissed. So so pissed.

:( And also this morning wasn't a good morning. Had a talk with Adli in the wee mornings from 145-2am. Bless his soul for being patient with me. He said a few things, i said a few things and it turned out to be quite an emotional conversation. Lol.. but all's well. So i guess those feelings were brought forward to my morning and i didn't feel a single hint of happiness bubbling in me, despite today being a Friday - the day that i finally see my botakhead after waiting patiently for 2 LONG weeks. I do wish tonight would be good, smooth, wonderful, worth rmbring. I do hope so. I pray it will be. Haiz..

OK, do not wanna infect any ill-feelings into any of y'all. So take care and God Bless.

1 day left to Raya! :)

XOXO!

meaning of life

2009-09-16T13:13:00.002+08:00

Life.

With every step we take,

We experience things that we'd never dream of.

With every move we make,

We're closer to finding out the sole truth.

The truth of our being, the truth of life.

The truth of existing, the truth of death.

Life.

With every word said,

We hear things that we refuse to listen.

With every word heard,

We feel things that we swore never to feel.

We're going that much closer to realise the meaning of life.

The meaning of emotions, the meaning of emptiness.

The meaning of love, the meaning of hate.

Life.

With every life brought into this world,

We wondered about Man's power.

With every life stripped from this harsh, harsh world,

We wondered about God's power.

We question humanity, we question God's almighty will.

We question Science, we question religions and faith.

Life.

What does Life mean to you?

[End]

Copyrighted (c)

Do respect the content of this post for i have written it with utmost sincerity and thought. I do hope no one has ever tried to rip my thoughts out of my blog and claim it as theirs. If so, i wish you'd stop and understand the meaning of hardwork.

In school now, and not in the bestest of moods. Granted i'm fasting, but i can't help feeling angry this morning and i almost cussed the lights out of Y for his accusations. I want this nightmare to end so that i could enjoy what's left of my holiday with my family. I dont want interruptions of any sort.

On a lighter note, Friday is coming closer and closer and i just can't wait to see my botak-head all dark and lean with muscles - i'm assuming. He did say his bod is too darn nice now that he's been going thru some tough training at HTA. Can't help but laugh so hard at his remark. He didn't call yesterday, so i'm assuming his batt died, he too darn tired, or he's just saving the stories for tomorrow.

Hari Raya coming soon, so whoever's intending to visit my place do gimme a call ;)

Take care and God Bless

XOXO

paranormal; animalistic; waxing

2009-09-14T01:22:00.002+08:00

Is there such thing as bad(tudung)day? Coz i'm having it. :s

Can't seem to pick his nose right, can you? LOL

Mind him, busy catching flies.

If i constantly make that supposedly-shocked face everytime, whenever i see a paranormal being, hypothetically, i think they would just laugh instead of scaring the living lights outta me.

Raising the brow Natassha-style

Andika~! :)

Too free sitting in the car.

So mischievous. I told her to stay out of the shot, she posed as well. -.-''

See that? She stuffed her face into the pillow LOL Cis, sisters these days.

[End]
Wow, i've never gone this long without blogging. I think it's coz i was lacking good material to blog on. And also i dont have that many pics to post. And they're all generic so i thought otherwise.
I just watched the extended trailer of New Moon and it's awesome!! Gawd, despite it being a spoiler for all its fans out there, i think thru the trailers we can appreciate the hard work put into making the movie rawk. The director was awesome! :)
What else.. Oh! I finally finished reading Nicholas Sparks: Message in a Bottle, and if there's ever such a rating (?/20) i'd give it a 25/20. It's amazing! It's a simple story about hardships, understanding, and how strong attraction can be when one person looks at another - be it your future-soulmate or just a random stranger. Not that i am encouraging the random stranger part if you're already unavailable. :x ANYWAYS, to be honest i CRIED while reading the last chapter of that book! Gawd, it's such a tear-jerker. It gets to you at a certain point and i hate it whenever that happens to me. Am i that much of a softie? I think i am. Sucks.
So i'm waiting for fasting month to end properly before i begin the next new book that i bought but have yet to finish reading: Missing by Susan Lewis. I hate the fact that i buy new books that i wanted to read but never eventually read it. Then slowly, buying new and latest books seems to be a bad habit of mine and it no longer becomes "for the sake of reading new material" but instead its now "new book by the author - must collect!" Bad, BAD habit. I know.
Oh and today, i woke up bright and early - 9.45am - to go to Parkway Parade with Momsie since she wanna collect her 25$ voucher from Isetan. We went there with just our handbags. Came home with 4 shopping bags. -.-'' Mom bought make-up applicators, i bought Eyelash Curler - FINALLY - all from Watsons ;) Then we collected her voucher and she bought a new little purse for whenever she cycles off to the market, went to Marks & Spencer so she could buy a bra, walked around looking for a purse that i can use besides my beloved white Roxy bag. And after much consideration we stopped at ANIMAL(roar!) and picked up this gorgeous peach coloured bag for 59.00$. Costly i know but i fell in love with it! And once you fall in love, you'll never part from it. Believe me on that. LOL Then we grocery shopped at Giant before we took a cab, paid 9$ for the bumpy & crazy trip and laughed our asses off once we stepped on homey grounds. I was being goofy. Dunno why.

I like the fact that i actually made my mom snicker and laugh. It made me realise that she does enjoy my company and actually had fun with me :) Hehe.
And yes today until tomorrow it's Wax-the-lab Day so all who had to return to school are enjoying the fact that we can wake up late for these two days. LOL. Not much of an incentive but it's better than nothing. ;)
Take care y'all and God Bless
XOXO!

u complete me

2009-09-10T21:39:00.002+08:00

He said no matter if he was busy or not, he will contact me either by text or phonecall.

He called.

And i wasn't expecting too much from him. Coz all the while, i understood that he must've been tired. But when his voice came into my ears like warm, warm chocolate i finally felt my sadness and loneliness disappear into oblivion, like it wasn't even there in the first place.

OK, in actual truth, despite what people assumed with that they see on my face, i do not seem that horribly sad that i dont hear from him that regularly nowadays. I do feel that little emptiness swelling in my heart like a balloon everyday, but there's nothing i can do but wait for him to contact me. I dont wanna txt him every bloody day saying how i am coz i knw he wont reply. And i want him to concentrate on his training. Thursdays always come soon and Thursdays dont run away from our grasps.

It was like hearing an angel speaking into my ear - cheesy, i know. It was a beautiful, and fun 30 mins i've ever had in my life. He was so curious about how i was doing, and was wondering what else am i gonna say before he ended the conversation. He was awfully sweet - brings tears to my eyes now just recalling it. The talk may have been short, but i'm sure once we see each other words can't truly express how i wld feel when i see him in the flesh.

Ahh.. my very own botak-head. Oh, no wait. Scratch that. He said he chopped his long tresses for a Scofield-cut. *imagines but fails*

Gosh. I can see it now. That impending day. That Friday. Sigh.. He can bet on anything he's got that i'm gonna hug him like nobody's business. Lol.

I do miss him. Terribly terribly miss him. Sigh.

Oh wells. I just gotta be patient. And our project is of no help at all. I can't believe it decides to shut itself down, NOW! OMG me and Tassh are like pulling our hair - or maybe just hers - coz of these bloody codes! I dunno how we're gonna deal with this.. Seriously i dont. And work.. oh, oh work.. Sigh..

Well, take care y'all and God Bless. Can't wait for Hari Raya!!! :D

XOXO!

heart ze rpattz

2009-09-09T23:27:00.010+08:00

Picture Pick-Up: ~~Mad About~~ Madly Insane About Robert Pattinson

Courtesy of WeHeartIt.com

OK, so my attention has been fully diverted when i suddenly thought of said heartthrob. But who doesn't like this juicy hunk of meat, right? I know my niece does. ;) And yes, of couse, i do too. But it's just a tribue. And i know it's a tad bit too much but hey, my blog, my rules, other uh.. peeps' pictures. :x

Well, enjoy!

PS: Sorry to the boys who hate him. Screw you :D

[End]
I shall now released the scream that i have held too long while hosting, resizing, and filling the pics into this post.
.....
*screams*
Take care y'all and God Bless
XOXO!
PS: No, it's so not an unhealthy obsession. Just a fan. :D

For u, and only u

2009-09-07T23:30:00.006+08:00

Someone said that it's all right to be selfish.

It's all right to demand something that you wanted so badly.

I'm not that strong.

I've never been.

I'll selflessly lie to your face, despite what i truly feel deep inside.

I may want something so badly, but you can bet i'll tell you i dont.

I may need treasures, but i'll gladly give it to you without hesitation.

So as you depart, my love.

Know this, just this.

I am not demanding anything, for i do not demand.

I just wish we'd see each other.

Soon.

Before my emotions explode. Before I explode.

Know this, just this.

That i am selfless, and whatever i say may not be what i truly feel.

I'll forsake my feelings so you'll be happy and comfortable.

So dont worry about me, baby. Let me worry about you..

I love you; dumb-founding, flabbergasted, awestruck kind of 'I love you'.

And i may pray so much, only so much.

But i know deep in my heart there's nothing more i could do.

I can't afford to be selfish, for i am not a selfish person.

People demand me to be selfish, but i dont want to risk the wall i had built.

The pain will soon subside, i know it will.

So come back to me, as soon as you're out.

Look for me, as soon as you're here.

Love me, as soon as you see me clear.

T.e.n

2009-09-07T13:05:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow.

One word and i could feel the ache in my heart making painful ripples within me. It's depressing, i know but after much talk with lovely yana, i couldn't help but pick up her sadness, too. I thought i would be all right since i went thru the same "phase" like when my bro left for his National Service. But i guess this is much more different and he is not my bro.

I dont wanna make a big fuss outta this. I mean, i wasn't the only one who went thru similar phases like mine. It's just him leaving to serve the nation, what's so bad about that right? In truth, you shld be more than proud of him being able to, really. And it's only 2 yrs. i've been thru all sorts of 2 yrs in my life - overly-emotional, overly-abusive both mentally and physically - so yeah, i think i can handle whatever it is God will throw at me. I'm sure it's a test and being me, i accept tests whole-heartedly, with arms wide open and ready to conquer it. Be it a good one, or a bad one which would definitely be more likely than not.

And being a Monday and all, not so bluesy like i thought it would since i woke up coz of sis who effortlessly swung her arm at my face - no bruises, thank God - while she was fast, FAST asleep. And not to mention my supervisor, Dr. Y who unabashedly said "I give up" and then leaned against the chair and broke it, which then he said "Oh, shit." Well, believe it. HAHA. I then turned to Tassh after he made his leave and snickered. "Karma."

Being a Monday, and the only day that i will freely be able to go out with said-boyfriend, i chose not to have my hopes up coz he did promise to try and make it for me. I dont mind if he can't coz it'll be the last night he eats dinner with his family. Which i think is pretty much more important. Besides, we've already spent a lot of time together last week, especially on Friday night. :) And he needs a lot of time to pack his things, anyway - he said he'll pack tomorrow morning. Sheesh, dude, as if you have enough time to pack 10 days worth of necessities. Nope, no time at all. I would gladly volunteer to help but i dont think the mother, or him, wouldnt like watching me pack his boxers.. :x

We'll see how my tomorrow goes. I do hope he'll be able to text me something, and i him. It'll be even better if he rings me up. Haiz. 10 days. Didnt know 10 days sounded so much longer than how logic describes it.

We shall pull thru :)

Take care y'all and God Bless!

XOXO

revelations

2009-09-05T00:37:00.003+08:00

Today.

Wow..

Lots of things happened today, and not just school but outside, too. And it involved so many people. It may not be a disastrous situation, but it was a shocker nonetheless.

I guess life does that to us; making an unexpected twist in our not-so storybook world that is life. And with the twists comes the repercussions, the consequences, the circumstances, and the cusses from the carbon-based beings that are humans.

Well, til then i shall think of what to blog. :)

Take care and God Bless y'all! And helloooo Saturday ;)

XOXO

wait for me

2009-09-03T16:06:00.003+08:00

Song of the Day: Wait for Me

Artiste(s): Theory of A Deadman

Courtesy of eLyrics.net

You are not alone tonight

Imagine me there by your side

It's so hard to be here so far away from you

I'm counting the days till

I'm finally done

I'm counting them down, yeah, one by one

It feels like forever till I return to you

But it helps me on those lonely nights

It's that one thing that keeps me alive

[Chorus:]

Knowing that you wait for me

Ever so patiently

No one else knows the feeling inside

We hang up the phone without saying goodnight

Because it's the sound of your voice that brings me home

It's never been easy to say

But it's easier when I've gone away

[Chorus:]

Knowing that you wait for me

Ever so patiently

Yeah, you're everything I've ever dreamed of having and

It's everything I need from you just knowing that you wait for me

[Bridge:]

What I'd give

What I'd do

Knowing I'm not there for you

Makes it so hard to leave

What I'd give

What I'd do

Anything to get me home to you

And this time I'll stay

And you wait for me

Ever so patiently

Yeah, you're everything I've ever dreamed of having and

It's everything I need from you just knowing that you wait for me

[End]

pics overload

2009-09-02T10:27:00.004+08:00

Picture Pick-Up: Mad About Pics with Text

Courtesy of WeHeartIt.com

[End]
That's a lotta pics. LOL. Hope y'all enjoyed that. :]
Take care and God Bless!
XOXO!

One thing

2009-09-01T10:43:00.004+08:00

If there is just one thing i would want from you:

it would be your heart.

If there is just one thing i would need from you:

it would be your love.

If there is just one thing i would treasure:

it would be you.

Always and forever.

Always treasuring you.

(C)opyrighted.

take baby steps from me

2009-08-31T11:21:00.003+08:00

1wk 1day as of Monday 31/08/09

Counting down the days he's leaving me for National Service. Sighs.. Some gurls tell me that it's not good you find someone who's about to go in/who's already in/or who just left camp. I am anxious coz i was told by those friends who told me the same thing for two years in a row now and i confess, i think i might've been traumatized by them and their share of bitter experiences. It's sad to hear them say that they were left behind by the men they loved the minute they entered camp. Or the other way around: where guys were left behind by their girlfriends once they go off.

I do pray that it won't happen, but so far so good on both sides. We're happy. HAHAH. I do like the times i spend with him; beach, lepak-ing, dinners. They're comfortable, fun, always fulfilling in some way. I seem to find him more fascinating each day. And likewise for him. HAHA. I always tell him new things and he just labelled me his personal wikipedia. -.- I dont know everything.

-Friday Night Out 28/08/09-

Me: Ehhh! Katak(frog)!!! *points to the back and at a frog hopping on the ground*

Him: Yer yer katak.

-Moments later-

Me: *walking side by side and looks around* Ehh.. where the katak eh? Hmm.. I wonder what sound it makes. (at this point i know they CROAK, but for the sake of making him laugh...) *grins* Ribbit-ribbit.

Him: *shocked beyond words and looks at me* aper sak tu? ribbet-ribbet??

Me: HAHAHAHAHA! Bunyi katak per! Ribbit-ribbit! Hehehehe.

Him: OK, dah dah sudah. Nanti i amek tu katak i sumbat dlm mulot u baru tau.

Me: *grins wider* Ribbit-ribbit! HAHAHAH!

Him: LOL *kiss head*

-Returning home that night-

Me: *sees a cockroach not too far from boyfie's shoe and pulls him to the side* Eh, u!

Him: Asal?? *looks around*

Me: *turns and mutters* Ade lipas pat situ.. *points* Tengah makan carrot. o_o

Him: -.- errr...

Me: Serious!!

Him: LOL kk. *kiss head*

HAHAHA. That's just how kecoh we are when we're together. We're bound to make each other laugh and be silly. I like that about himself, and vice versa. I'm not afraid or uncomfortable when i get silly coz i know he will just laugh at me, and then kiss my head. :] Heheh.

-Same night-

Me: What kindda girls do you prefer? Without me in your head, OK?

Him: o_O What you mean? I can't think of my preferences coz you're IN my head.

Me: ... *melted*

LOL. I know it's cheesy but i just wanna say it here, for the sake of reminiscing. LOL.

Anyways, me and Tassh just found out that we might actually extend our stay here in TP to finish up our project. Even our supervisor said the same thing about us and most of the groups here in the lab. Sad but true. :( I hope i'll be here for only 2 weeks, spend it during puase and not Hari Raya. I wanna enjoy my Hari Raya without trying to go around it coz of school or whatnot.

So to everyone, take care and God Bless!

XOXO!

A little something..

2009-08-29T00:06:00.002+08:00

TGIF!

Tassh, Lina :)

Introducing.. HE! :D

At DTE.

And Ianoski. LOL
[End]

Very few, i know. But most are in izyana's phone so i havta wait for her to tag me on fb or send them to me thru MSN. :) Then i'll prolly write a longer post once i have them :D

OK peeps. Take care and God Bless!

XOXO!

speech

2009-08-28T16:27:00.004+08:00

*claps hands together*

Well, now it's time for some long dreary words to surface since i feel like saying things rather than collecting a bunch of pictures to post and tell the whole world where i took it from, add in some of my thoughts, and then go "Take care and God Bless" and end it with "XOXO!"

Nah, not today.

I dont feel like that all of a sudden. Coz today is pretty different compared to every other day. Dunno what the difference is but i'll just blabber on and on over here. Maybe i might end up saying something very philosophical that gets you thinking back ;)

I wish i didn't go to school, coz one thing: i hear loads of cusses and swearing from most of the chinese boys and that isnt anywhere near comfortable. Coz i accidentally recall what they say and it's as good as saying it out loud. Since i fast, my fast is considered "cancelled". Or something like that. i hate it when that happens. So i'd rather stay at home where my environment is clean as oxygen and i can do whatever i want at home: like write some stories, play CLEAN games (LOL), or do some fb-ing and tweeting. I guess i am that anal when it comes to rules of faith. :s

My supervisor became a pain in my arse hours ago, in the morning no less, and it ruined my mood for awhile. But Tassh, sweet lovely Tassh, dragged me out of class so we could get the book that he suggested to me to get since "my foundation is too weak and bad". -.- wow, he could've just said i was dumb and stupid without indirectly telling me "professionally" from a tutor to a student. really, some people just need to get straight to the point instead of hinting and making us figure you out. -_-

Oh wells.

Pressure. Stress. Overwhelming sense of responsibility. Emotions that gets you going and going, and even when you thought all these are over and done with, you still feel at a loss; helplessness, blindsighted. I hate it when times like that happen to me, especially me. And if the situation is too deep for me to handle, i'd panic and i'd go totally nuts. Beyond nuts, believe me.

Next time i post, there'll be pics :D

rainy; shiny

2009-08-27T13:05:00.002+08:00

"Re-blogged" from Gabby(I just love her pictures!!!)

Hear him let out the tiniest rawr. :3

I heart creamy biscuits with filling in the middle. YUUMM!!

So close yet so far

A smile a day keeps you smiling away

Dont be afraid to dream big

Even soft plushies would wanna learn, too

Why i love kissing you :)

Found the little kitten yet? ;)

Backyard smooches

GAH!

I hear you squealing, Tassh~ ;)

True that

Poor soldier. LOL

Darth Vader defending himself against a pair of parakeets holding a syringe. -.- LOL

I dunno what she was thinking but that's just insane. :O
[End]
Tassh's E63's blasting out her playlist. The clock on my workstation's ticking by the minutes. Everyone else typing stuffs on their keyboards. Everyone bored out of their minds..
ANYWAYS, yesterday night was amazing. :) Planned the day before that me and boyfie will meet up after we break our fast and head over to ECP for a good dose of seaview and catching up. It was sweet, to me. He was sooo sweet too. :) I loved loved yesterday! Argh, if only we had more time to spend with each other, so i didn't have to worry about what time i needa go home.. :( and i got soooo darn worried that boyfie coughed so hard and kept saying he felt little prickles on his heart. that dont sound good at all. but he said if he told me that he wasn't feeling too good we wouldnt be able to meet up. i felt horrible. :( but he said it's all good. hope he's doing good now, too. and getting enough sleep :)
I'm hoping i'd be able to meet up tomorrow so we could break out fast together :D yay!!!
To everyone, take care and God Bless. It's a cooling weather today! Enjoy ;)
XOXO!

Glam me up

2009-08-26T00:14:00.004+08:00

A picture-packed TuesdayLocation(s): TP, Starbucks

She just got extensions. Prettyyyy :)

Looks like she going emo, but no. She was freezing. Everyone was. LOL

He bought a cake for her for not coming to dinner with us last Tuesday. LOL

Black Forest Cake. :)

20th October

[End]

I'm not in good spirits today, not too sure why though. And it's not a good sign either. I was supposed to be looking forward to tonight, since i'm meeting the boyfriend for some catching up. I feel sad and scared somehow and that aint right at all. I have no idea where i wanna drag him to, but prolly somewhere near so we can lepak without anyone bothering us. Prolly somewhere cosy too since this week's been windy. Love the winds. LOL

And it took me darn long to post the pics coz of photobucket being very very difficult to me lately. I adjusted the pictures' sizes to medium, which is 320x240, suitable for the size of my site and the loading time, but once i copied the html code and pasted them onto my blogger post editor, it "magically" got maximised into its original size and it pissed the hell outta me. and it didn't happen on just one occasion, many times in fact and it just frustrates me that i cannot continue posting at times. So i succumb to getting them hosted by ImageShack [Click!]. Oh wells..

And i'm getting sleepier every single darn day. I think it's coz i slept too late, woke up early for Sahur, slept after that (which is only 2 hrs) and woke up too early to go to school. Frankly, i am trying to sleep early so that i have at least enough sleep, and when i come to school i wont be sleepy and nodding my head off every 15 mins. It's irritating, and so un-glam :s Oh wells..

To all my Muslim friends, happy fasting! Take this month to forgive, though it is difficult sometimes and on certain occasions, and try not to get pissed since it's clearly not good. :)

Take care and God Bless.

XOXO!

white teeth flashin'

2009-08-25T17:01:00.002+08:00

-MP/SIP-

Me: *was stoning but actually thinking of what to do with my codes* ......

Tassh: *points finger to my screen* Inserttttt intooooo DeeeeeeBeeeeee

Me: *stares* err...

Tassh: Hmm... what should i do with this... Inserrrrtttttt inttooooooo DeeeeeBeeeeeeee!

Me: *laughing too hard* XD

Tassh: eh wanna borrow mirror..

Me: OK, *digs into bag* ... :D *turns to Tassh and flashes white teeth*

Tassh: *blinks* Oh no i'm blinded! -.- gimme mirror larh!

Me: *laughing too hard again* XD

-End-

Quizzes Galore!

2009-08-25T12:16:00.003+08:00

You Are 60% Happy

You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments.

You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed.

How Happy Are You?

Your Gift is Intellect

You are a big thinker, and you're always playing with new ideas.

You are curious about the world. You enjoy learning and developing new theories.

You enjoy researching, analyzing, and solving problems. Thinking hard feels good!

You're the type of person who finds most mental tasks to be easy. You love to stretch your brain.

What's Your Gift?

Your Love Score Is: 85

It's truly love. You have an amazing partner and a wonderful relationship.

Your relationship isn't perfect, but you know how to work with each other to make it better.

You both listen to one another, give freely, and do your best to make things work.

While you have ups and downs like any other couple, you're good at getting through the bad times together.

And although you find it easy to love your partner, you understand that lasting love doesn't come easily.

You are both willing to give this relationship everything you have. And luckily, that's all it takes to make it work.

Are You in Love?

You Are an Indifferent Ex

You're not one of those girls who thinks about her exes - or even remembers them

"Love 'em and Leave 'em" is your motto. And your break ups tend to be a clean break.

It's a nice strategy to have, and guys appreciate your total lack of emotional baggage.

But just a little reminder: it is okay to remember the good parts of your past, even with exes.

What Kind of Ex-Girlfriend Are You?

You Want to Impress Strangers

You want strangers to think you're attractive. You want to be seen as gorgeous and sexy.

You want your friends and family members to think you're smart. You like been seen as insightful and wise.

You are at your most playful when you are around family and friends. You are more serious around people you don't know well.

You let strangers see parts of you right away, but you believe in keeping some things private.

You don't become close to many people. You only let people you've gotten to know very well in.

Who Do You Want to Impress?

Your Relationship is Still Building Strength

You're relationship is fairly strong, but you're still working on making things solid.

Make sure you're both treating each other with kindness and respect, even when things aren't going well.

Your relationship isn't in danger, but it could be if a crisis hits. You need more strength to get through the bad times.

Remember what attracted you to each other, and try to bring some of that fire back. It's not too late!

How Strong is Your Relationship?

Your Reputation Is: Sweet Girl

While you're well known, there's nothing to worry about.

You're reputation is mostly good - as good as any rep can be.

Do You Have A Bad Girl Reputation?

Not a Jealous Bone in Your Body

You're secure, trusting, and giving with friends and lovers

And while you may have been hurt before, you've bounced back

You're generally happy with your life - and no one's grass is greener than yours

One word of caution: some may see your lack of jealousy as indifference!

Are You A Jealous Woman?

You Are 50% Extrovert, 50% Introvert

You're a bit outgoing but also a bit reserved

Like most people, you enjoy being social

But you also value the time you have alone

You have struck a good balance!

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

You're Reeling Him In

It sounds like you and your guy are a fairly new couple.

He's into you, but he's not willing to bet his life on it.

But if you've been together for a while, you may need to consider why he's not hooked yet!

Do You Have Him Hooked?

Your Beauty Element is Earth

You are the epitome of a natural beauty. Your look is definitely effortless.

While you shy away from a lot of make-up and accessories, you're no granola girl either!

You keep your beauty routine simple and clean. You would never cover up your beauty.

And since you use so few products, you can really splurge on the stuff you love.

What's Your Beauty Element?

me-love!

2009-08-24T15:16:00.003+08:00

What do you see in me?

What do you feel when i speak to you?

Does your heart swell at the sight of me?

Does your soul scream for me to be with you?

What feelings do i instill into your heart?

Questions;

Questions i dared not ask,

For the fear of hearing the answers,

Would be a difficult task.

I see sincerity in you

I feel dizzy with happiness when i speak to you

My heart swells bigger than i can contain at the sight of you

My soul constantly scream for you to be with me

For you've instilled love into my heart.

And i thank you.

Thank you for being patient.

Thank you for being warm.

Thank you for being honourable.

Thank you for the strength and support you've given me.

Thank you for being you.

Thank you for giving me your heart.

Thank you for loving me.

[End]

Heh. :)

XOXO!

girly moments

2009-08-24T14:31:00.005+08:00

Tassh: OMG, borrow mirror. i plucked out a white-head

Me: Tangan gatal eh, minah?

Tassh: *holds out her right hand to me*

Me: i dont wanna see it! *digs in bag for mirror and pushes hand away*

Tassh: I flicked it off! Flicked it off!!! *scrapes stuff away from left hand*

Me: Oh. Heheh.

-Moments later-

Tassh: *hums to some music on her E63*

Me: *Stares and blinks at her*

Tassh: dont look at me or i'll flick something at you... *snickers*

Me: NO! Dont flick a hair folicle at me!!!!

Come and Go

2009-08-20T00:00:00.003+08:00

What Happened on Sunday & Tuesday

(Monday was spent doing presentation so dont ask why i never snapped any pics coz we were too busy to even pose for a pic or two)

16/08/09

Sunday after Wedding
18/08/09

@ Earle Swensen's [Click!]Chilli Lobster Pasta. Fanta-bulously delicious!

Root Beer Float. Heart heart

Birthday gurl digging in

My Sticky Chewy Chocolate

Her Frosted Chocolate Malt

Cheeks and Cherries. Best combination

At Simei

End.
So Sunday was spent with attending a wedding ceremony at Changi-Simei CC. It was a huge thing for me coz it's been, like, a while since i saw him last. But my parents, friends, and boyfie, did give me help and support as the day drew closer and closer. I got to a point where i had to choose to lie or just show up and enjoy myself. When i still couldn't decide, boyfie gave me the green light and told me to just go and show some support. It was good of him to say that to me, because i needed to hear that. So i went there and i had a good time, since his cousin, lovely CT, talked to me the whole time i was there and eating the scrumptious food. She was being very hospitable since i said few mins after i arrived that i was nervous and shaking from the inside. She then rubbed my back and said it'll be all right, and i'll be all right.
And it did turn out good. When we talked, however brief it was, i didn't feel hatred boiling in me, and my hand didn't even form a tight fist like i usually would make. I looked him in the eye and talked like we were friends. Which was what we both wanted: to be friends. I dont get why my friends asked me how i could deal being friends with my ex and i said it's all in your will; the willingness to set all the emotions aside, the hatred you had, and just see him as a friend. It's not easy, i had to admit, but after awhile you'll eventually get comfortable with him/her and your friendship might turn warm. Well, that's just me. Some refuse to be friends with their ex and i dont blame them. Some dont even deserve a single hint of your friendship, anyway. LOL
Anyways, Tuesday 18/08 was wonderful. Not the morning, or the afternoon, but the evening. I dragged Dily out of her house, which actually gave her the opportunity to sport on her beautiful purple MANGO dress that a lovely dude bought for her ;) And then i drove us both to Terminal 3, Changi Airport to try out Earle Swensen's. It was very high-end and the seats are so low! LOL. But other than that the food was AMAZING. I've never tasted food any lovelier than theirs. The food was served fast and in its utmost condition. Wonderful service: thus the ++ charges to my bill -.-'' Oh wells.
My presentation is done. Now what's left is the judging and gauging our progress. Not the prettiest sight anyone would wanna see, so Tassh and I crossed our fingers and we're hoping for the bestest of best. We do hope God would spare us the humiliation and scrutiny and would let us pass with a satisfied sigh. *cross fingers* :s
OK, take care y'all and God Bless. And to all who's PR2 is tomorrow, may God bless us all.
XOXO!
PS: To all my ladies out there, give this link What Men Really Feel [Click!] a try. I was surprised after reading it but trust me, you might get some intimate insight on what guys feel about.. certain things we say and do. :)

Updated on 20th August 2009

O.M.G.!!!!!!! I hate PR2!!!! I've witnessed first-hand how everyone's presentation went - whose project coming to a close, and whose hasn't - and boy, was i surprised that most of us aren't nearing that impending end. I was gonna say doom but that aint right :s

Anyway, everyone was like holding their breaths every single time each group presented. And every single damn time, this certain teacher "shoots" questions that got the poor people stuttering with words and much-needed explanations. But like Nigel said, it's not to criticize us. It's only to push us further and provide some input on our projects, so that we'll be ready for judging - ready for the worst. Uh-huh. *crosses fingers again*

Tassh, i wish we'd go through this the best we can. Nervous as you can be, try to understand that i've been nervous too and i do think about the consequences of our project. How the lecturers will try to kill us for the sake of pushing us and make us present the best of our abilities. So please stop saying i'm being too cool. I'm not. It's just that i am scared, and i try not to be also coz if i panicked, you would be panicked times ten. :s i dont want that on my conscience. I do pray that we'll pull through no matter what they say. We will lay down our flaws and we will be stronger. LOL.

XOXO!

cuttteeee!!!!!

2009-08-17T15:02:00.002+08:00

Picture Pick-Up: Mad About Cute Lil' Things!

Courtesy of Tumblr Site (Gabby)

PS: You wont be bored looking at her pictures :)

[End]
LOL :)
XOXO!

sleep-deprived, of course

2009-08-17T10:20:00.002+08:00

Regina Spektor

The Call

From The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian Soundtrack

It started out as a feeling

Which then grew into a hope

Which then turned into a quiet thought

Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder

'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back

When you call me

No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing

Doesn't mean it's never

Been this way before

All you can do is try to know

Who your friends are

As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon

And follow the light

You'll come back

When it's over

No need to say good bye

You'll come back

When it's over

No need to say good bye

Now we're back to the beginning

It's just a feeling and no one knows yet

But just because they can't feel it too

Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger

'Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back

When they call you

No need to say good bye

You'll come back

When they call you

No need to say good bye

[End]

Monday blues suck. Not only did i have to wake up at 7 - freaking - am, i had to drag myself out of the house, in the cold chilly morning and drive my car from the top unsheltered floor of the carpark, down to a sheltered one. With it i brought my left-behind items that my sis conveniently forgot to bring down for her "beloved" big sister. -.- Why i say that? Well, ever since we shared our queen-sized bed, she's been smacking my face with her arm and hand, and kicking me in the side with her leg. She's not tiny, should i emphasize, and it truly hurt. Sometimes i aroused from my beauty sleep because of her, and it's not during the timeframe that i meant to wake up (7.30-8am)! Sometimes, i'd be awake at 2am (if i fell asleep at 12am), or at 5am (in which i slept at 1 or 2am). IT SUCKS!!!

Now i'm all teary-eyed and in dire need of some slapping coz i can't afford to fall asleep now when i got too many stuffs to do due to some deadlines that surfaced. And i gotta pick out a place for me and boyfie to go to on our Wednesday date since next week onwards we can't see each other frequently, only when we plan to break our fast in the evening. Wanna make it special. LOL..

Anyways, with blasted music to my ears it'll keep me "wide awake" until lunch. Til next time i blog, take care y'all and God Bless.

XOXO

Smooch me softly, baby

2009-08-14T12:07:00.002+08:00

Picture Pick-Up: Mad About Smooching

Courtesy of WeHeartIt.com

(PS: I just love kisses. Who doesn't, right? Oh and the lines have no relation or story, they're just thoughts in my head.)

This time, curiosity didn't kill it, it just made it more curious.

Oh yeah, it can be.

Lean me down on my back and everything just intensifies.

By the sea or ocean we'll always embrace each other.

I be a sucker for spontaneity.

Soft cheeks and hard jawline; it's the sweet scent of your skin that draws me in.

"From Juno"High-school loves are adorable.

For the future of our kids, we'll pull through.

I just havta wrap my arms around your neck.

Pooches need some luvin' too, y'know.

Under the stars, i'll constantly wish for your lips on mine.

The gentle touch of your fingers warms me up every single time.

Your breath caressing my lips as you laugh.

I wanna absorb your everything.

In love, we gotta support each other.

So we can end up happily married and very much in love :)
[End]

OK, no reason at all whatsoever. *coughLYINGcough* What?? -.- But even if i did have some sort of reason, i refuse to disclose any sort of sordid detail that is beyond personal, into an internet diary where everyone could read it. They'll begin to judge me without rightfully asking me, or understanding my views and principles. Pfft. Even if boyfie refuses to read any bit of my blog, i do wish he would wanna coz some of my post are dedicated to him. :( Oh wells.
Anyways, off for lunch! Might eat, might not. Sigh..
Take care and God Bless.
XOXO!

pain for a lil' wayne

2009-08-11T13:20:00.003+08:00

National Day Celebration cum 3D/2N stay at Rasa Sentosa Resort, Sentosa, Singapore

(Yes, yes the headline is long. Piss off. LOL)

Anyway, yes, i enjoyed my LONG vacay with my family and had a helluva time there. I managed to return home from work at 130AM - dad fetched me from Suntec City itself and waited in the car until i popped up. And he actually entertained me for the whole trip coz i was talking and talking non-stop like i was some jakun tourist. -.- poor Dad. LOL

And when we reached our room, with hot Roti Prata and Nescafe in hand, Mom opened the sliding door and i immediately hugged her. Coz i was so tired, aching, and sad that i dragged my dad out late in the morning so he could bring me to my family. I kissed both of them, changed and laid down flat on my back on the soft bed and comforters. Sis hugged me and said she missed me. Gawd, love family vacays. :D

And actually, in honest truth, i didn't wanna post anything concerning my holiday. But i thought it'd be great to show what it looks like so here they are! Of course, some of the pics dont belong to me so credits to Google.com. ;)

Enjoy!

Welcome to Rasa Sentosa! :D

This isn't our room but it's the exact.. uh.. well, look of our room. LOLWe got the garden view so it's very cool. :)

The HUGE-ass slide the minute you stepped into the swimming area. It was filled with screaming kids i dared not come any closer. :O

Ahh.. my non-stop-growing 10yr old sister. LOL

At Imbiah Lookout

Waiting to enter the only attraction Mom chose to surrender money for. The crowd there was mad lorh. HAHA!

Us being oh-so ready to ride the Luge, thanks to bro's recommendation.PS: to those who just became my blog-reader recently, do rmbr that my bro is ONE year younger than me. Despite the height -.-

Not my pic but i had to show you what it is :D
Ya, so this is the Luge. Fun, right? ;)

Even kids and adults can ride it :D I did

This is where the trip ends and we return our short-lived COE-free vehicle to their caretakers. LOL

From here onwards are my pics :)And this is the Skyride everyone MUST take - since we paid for it - where we go back up to return to higher ground.

From my POV. Scary as hell. I dared not look down. Mom did -.-

When we posed for my Cooky, the attraction took a pic of US. Was freakin' funny arh. HEHE

I didn't look down, but i did bend down to snap a pic of how it looks like from waaaaayyy up here. >.<

Faraway view of our hotel :D Apparently, the haze came here too.

I couldn't hear a thing from my bro and sis - either they're scared or they were trying not to scare themselves. LOL

Hazy view of the sea and boats.

Touchdown! LOL. They told us to push open the handle-bar across our bellies and run off the Skyride's path. Me and Mom were squealing like children when we ran off. HAHAHAH. Funny.

In the tram/monorail/LRT - blah - to VivoCity for LJS luncheon.

Bro so botak. Sighh..

Me heart me-momsie :D

Sister nak step-berpikiran. LOL

[End]
I know it's like a damn late post but blogger was going thru some difficult loading times, plus photobucket. And coz i wasn't in the mood to wait, i just loaded the pics, coded them in, and wrote the full post at school. LOL.
Editted on August 12, 2009
Watched The Hangover with Dily! HAHAHAHA. It was gross, but hilarious. Superb and unpredictable, i tell you! I was a little turned off by the many nude scenes but i guess it's Vegas, and you not seeing a single flash of private skin would be wrong for a crazy place like that. HAHAH. And the baby was toooooo cute!!!!! Feel like tearing him from the movie and keep him. LOL.
Okie dokies. Shall be meeting boyfie tonight. :) Take care y'all and God Bless.
XOXO!
-MP/SIP Week 17-

Me & Tassh: *listening to 987fm*
Tassh: You know this song?
Me: Familiar lehh... Isn't it Lil' Wayne?
Tassh: Hmm...
Me: *clicks on website* ahhh there! *points to screen* OHH! Jay Sean and Lil' Pain-
Tassh: -.- Lil WAYNE
Me: *was laughing too hard* O.M.G.
Tassh: Wow, confident seh. Lil' Pain. HAHAHA.

Choices

2009-08-10T21:09:00.000+08:00

Making Decisions Suck

Beyond Reason, Or Understanding

It Just Plain Suck

Between Family And Love

I'd Rather Hurt Myself Than Hurt Them

If It Means To Keep Them Happy

Hence,

Making Big Decisions Just Plain Freakin' Suck

Big, BIG Time

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2009-08-07T10:03:00.005+08:00

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Again, i am not doing this post for any profit. It is entirely voluntary so please do not report me. They did, however, send me an email about it and told me to spread the word on their product.. so here i am! HAHAH. :)

To everyone I know, I cherish and I love, TGIF! :D

Take care and God Bless

XOXO!

Talk about titties :O

2009-08-06T21:58:00.003+08:00

Jeff Dunham's 2008 Christmas Special

So happens i was being bored out of my wits therefore i Googled my favourite ventriloquist (one who becomes the voice of his/her puppets like a comedic act) and found his quite latest vid during last year's Christmas. I was expecting it to be one helluva show but it seemed to be toned down a little bit, way way down that i thought it seemed like he was holding back just a little. But it was all good, coz he's still the funniest person i've ever met let alone him standing with his puppets and all. HAHAHA. And here's just a little snippet i managed to love coming from one of his oldest and most purplest friend: Peanut. ;)

(To those who dont have a single clue what i am talking about, please head on to the link above and watch the whole show.. PLEASE. You won't regret it :D)

Anyway, here's the snippet. Enjoy. HAHAHA.

Snippet 1

Peanut: .. I hope i'm adopted. Maybe i can be one of Angelina Jolie's adoptee! One who's still nursing, of course. Oh i'm sorry Brad Pitt but i'm just freaking thirsty! My biggest decision of the day would be.. "Hmm, let's see uh.. Left or the right...? Or right down the middle!"

Snippet 2

Peanut: Yes i said Titties~ Bodacious ta-tas~! If they're little they're Tittles! If they're big they're Ta-tonsters. Tit-zillas~ Tit-tanics! But it's sad coz when they get older, they'll sink. Ah, globes of love~

Snippet 3

Peanut: An evil superhero. Da-da-da-da! It's drug-man! *sniff sniff*

Some of you may have gone far more blur than you were at first, but trust me.. watch the vid and you'll so definitely get what i mean. HAHAHA. I had so much fun watching the vid, i just had to blog about it :D

Anyways, TGIF tomorrow! Oh yeah, thank God for that. :) And i do hope me and Tassh will be excused to "watch" tomorrow's National Day celebration in school. Apparently, everyone in the lab opted to go as well so all of us decided too. ;)

Take care and God Bless!

XOXO!

holidays come faster!

2009-08-06T15:33:00.003+08:00

Pictures Galore

Courtesy of Google.com & WeHeartIt.com

(If you can't see the pictures, feel free to click them. They'll be maximised to your heart's content :D)

OK, so my unhealthy obsession with Ange, Brad and their huge brood may be suspicious, but who doesn't love 'em? Tassh does. HAHAHA. Anyway, i just can't wait for that two days of relaxation for me poor self. This Saturday will be spent at work and at home, since the hotel strictly accomodates only 3 peeps in a room therefore two peeps had to leave after monkeying around. HAHAH. So dad sacrificed himself, and then suggested that i come on Sunday instead of staying from Saturday onwards. I, being a self-proclaimed pampered princess, was hoping to stay for 2 nights but for family's convenience, i said OK and so me and Dad will protect our home from buggers! :O LOL

Okie dokie y'all! Take care and God Bless!

PS: i wanna watch GI Joe with Mommy and boyfie!!! :'(

XOXO!

wont turn a blind eye on u

2009-08-05T11:54:00.003+08:00

Taking chances;

It's about grasping your Faith and taking that giant leap

It's about understanding the consequences of your footsteps

It's about realising your surroundings before you act

It's about analysing your words before you speak

It's about befriending someone before you fall in love

Emotionally in-tuned;

It's about understanding one's pain and joy

It's about believing that one's will to change the world

It's about supporting someone in a struggle

It's about relieving their suffering

It's about loving them when there's no one else to love them back

Being in love;

It's about compromise

It's about sacrifice

It's about heartbreak

It's about sweet indulgence

It's about acceptance

It's about forgiveness

It's about magic

It's about torture

It's like Hell on Earth

It's like floating in Heaven

It's about caring for someone other than your own

It's about finding your soulmate

[End]

OK, so i havent been updating much but it's all coz of my project - can't i continue complaining about it? I mean really, it's all that's occupying my simplistic life now. OK, so not that simple but it's getting there. What do i mean? Well, the very thing i fear most has started and i "can't wait" for the storm to come since i've felt/tasted/heard the thunder. Or maybe it's coz of my unexpected period that decided to bubble out before the fasting month. I think He don't want me to skip any more days. LOL. Which i'm cool about. :)

Yesterday was amazing. I had so much fun meeting Dily after a week, and she seemed so much more happier after her trip to Bangkok. I'm glad she came back in one piece and not crying her eyes out or anything. Which was a huge relief for me. And then since Fye (her only MALE best friend besides Adli) let her keep his DSLR aka Kelly, we abused it to no end. HAHAHA. The pictures turned out amazing we just had to use it until we're satisfied with the pictures taken. Ahhh.. cam-whoring.

And then tonight, i will be meeting boyfie before he leaves for Brunei this Friday. 4 days of silence. Sigh. I was actually hoping to meet him at Vivo and hang out with him during National Day this coming Sunday, but he told me last week that he won't be in Singapore and will be at Brunei spending time with his mom, dad (who works as a Training officer there) and his little sis. I'm sure playing soccer with them all will be fun. And i do hope tonight will be OK; we have some scores to settle with each other and i dont intend to turn a blind eye on it.

Anyways, take care and God Bless!

XOXO!

Meow~ :3

2009-07-31T13:14:00.003+08:00

Picture Pick-Up: Mad About Kittens!

Courtesy of Google.com

Awww.. Blue Eyes :)

Lick dem paw! :D

Cute little eyes. Hehe

Meow!

Damn you're too tiny :3

Dont mess with the green hoodie!

Got Milk?

Kitty Litter: Beware!

Want a cuppa of purrs and meows? :3
Sighhhhh... HAHAHAHA
Take care and God Bless!
XOXO!

Here comes sappy

2009-07-29T22:18:00.003+08:00

Dear World,

As i look at the pictures of my past, at the faces i've grown to adore and love, i've realised that i, too, have changed beyond recognition. I no longer recognise who the girl behind the purple-framed specs was. I could no longer reconnect myself with that girl from years ago. There was too much pain attached to that girl and i can see how much it affected her image, her soul, and her heart. I can tell how disheartened that girl looked, even as she aged into maturity, along with heavier responsibilities dropped on her shoulders and a blurry future ahead of her. I dared not blame the source(s) of her miseries, because that would be going against God's powerful will upon each and every one of His minions living on Earth. I dared not hate those who affected her life, or touched it with utmost affection and compassionate love for her.

I dared not hate whoever crossed my path, stayed on it, or had left it.

Whoever i've met and got to know had left footsteps in my life; footsteps that will be hard to disappear even through the strongest of winds or the harshest of rains. Even if their role in my life had been miniscule, or magnanimously life-changing, i shall never forget their faces, their voices, and how much that used to mean to me. But to those who still stayed with me, think about me if not everytime at least once in their life, i cherish them most. Especially my best friends.

No wonder there's a saying that pictures speak a thousand words... They actually do, to me, as i looked back at those days where i had been happy, was happy, and stayed happy. It was a nostalgic experience for me as i smiled upon my sillyness, the humour, and the laughter i felt coming across from picture to my soul. It touched me where no human being had ever tried, and it softened my heart every time i gave my picture albums a quick glance. Frienships, to me, are the most beautiful things anyone can ever have in their lives and if it weren't for friendships.. none of us would ever have relationships. We wouldn't even know what relationships mean if it weren't for friendships. Stepping stone, if i could say so myself.

And it'll be a waste if anyone of us, including myself, were to take our friendships for granted, thinking that if we dont do a thing the friendship will forever stay strong. That's very wrong, to me.. but rifts are meant to happen in one's friendship/relationship. If not for the adoration or love you feel for your circle of friends, no one will continue to stick by you and comfort you, or watch over you, or hug you, or kiss you. We can't afford to pretend things never happened, nor drag things on if they did. We gotta brush the dust off our knees and stand up for what we cherish, what we love. I love my friends so much it kills me if we ever, ever part. I love them so much they are like my sisters to me and i adore them to death. Without them by my side i dont think i could ever see the light ever again. They're so beautiful to me, i couldn't help but stare in wonder and smile at how bright their grins looked to me.

I would die without my best friends.

Easily put, cherish your friends like they are family. Adore them like they are your little ones. And love them like they are your guardian angels, coz hey, you gotta admit.. sometimes they do look like they are sent from heaven. :)

I love you!

Take care and God Bless

XOXO!

do be do be doo

2009-07-29T14:06:00.002+08:00

-MP/SIP-

Tassh: A-weema-weh A-weema-weh A-weema-weh A-weema-weh. In the jungle the mighty jungle the lion sleeps tonight..!!

Me: *laughs* and you still insist i'm the crazier one

Tassh: You'll only hear this from me, in this lab, at this hour.

Me: ohhh yeah..

Tassh: *gets a Hongkee accent* In de jungerr ar.. the mighty junger.. the lion sleeps tonite ar *snorts and laughs too hard to continue*

Me: *rolls over floor laughing* XD!! Cannot tahan already!! *clicks on Blogger.com*

-End-

Love is in the air~

2009-07-29T09:20:00.006+08:00

Picture Pick-Up: Mad About All Things Sweet & Cute

Courtesy of WeHeartIt.com

[Fin]

I just blogged about these pictures coz i thought they were pretty and sweet and cute and it touched my heart a little bit. And also coz i texted boyfie and i had a ball of a time laughing at his messages. However, it turned out to be a discussion where he declared to me, twice, that he will not return to his old habit - which i shall not disclose right here. Of course, i am glad that he said those things to me and it's not like i dont trust him at all. I was worried that he might miss the feeling of it, but it'll be harder on me to think that i am not worthy enough to make him keep it up. He teased me about it before, and maybe coz he thought i was joking as well but it came to a point where i got serious and told him the truth about my feelings. That i am not going to let him get back to his old ways again.

It'll actually kill me, really.

Oookayy.. Take care and God Bless! :) LOL

XOXO!

Never say Nevah!

2009-07-28T09:18:00.002+08:00

The Fray - Never Say Never

Song from Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen

Personal Rating: 15/10 :D

There's some things we don't talk about

rather do without

and just hold the smile

falling in and out of love

ashamed and proud of

together all the while

You can never say never

why we dont know when

time and time again

younger now than we were before

Don't let me go

[x2]

Picture you're the queen of everything

as far as the eye can see

under your command

I will be your guardian

when all is crumbling

steady your hand

You can never say never

why we dont know when

time, time and time again

younger now then we were before

Don't let me go

[x2]

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again

We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go

[x4]

[Thanks to Jewel (lost_n_delirious@hotmail.com) for these lyrics]

[ www.azlyrics.com ]

singing in the golden rain

2009-07-27T10:54:00.003+08:00

My First Gig err.. Participation

Yea so like i said before, i would be shit-busy out and about and working on Sunday so i hardly had any spare time to update anything on what happened with my weekend. But it was spent well and with a dash of fun, a hint of laughter, and a whole truckload full of local music and flavour. The performances i watched outside Cineleisure was amazing! Of course, besides the screaming dudes (they were apparently a Metal - or totally Rock - band) so many people were turned off by the screaming and the loud amplifiers by their ears as they walk past the black stage and stairs. It hardly had anything else, just some amps, white gates, their instruments and microphones. And the production crew weren't any good. Microphones were hardly workable coz half the time the singers were speaking you can't hear a single word they were saying let alone hear them sing their own songs. It sucked that way but the songs i heard were wonderful. Some were so good i had to tap my feet and bob my head.

And when boyfie's band came up, i finally heard the applause they deserved. Sigh. He played the guitar like an amazing pro and he's been at it for almost 7 years! Sighhh.. I felt so utterly lucky to have a taste of his band's music. And as i watched his fingers strum so fast over the guitar, i was star-strucked and beyond words. It was surreal! He played sooooooo well. He opened for most of the songs they played. And he was soooo in to playing the music that he started jumping around like a true guitarist. HAHAHAHA. I thought it was the most beautiful sound i've ever heard in my entire life, and yes i think i've moved on from my first love (normal guitar) to my new love, the electric guitar. Oh, how smitten i am with his guitar...

Then after meeting Izyana - from TP - we watched a few bands play and left, in a hurry, to watch what's left of the fireworks display during the NDP Preview. Esplanade was packed to the brim we couldn't even get past the flyover and just sat at the end, hoping to at least see some of the fireworks. And it was beautiful. It was bright, big, loud, and prettyyyy... Like the black sky that night was producing golden rain upon Marina Bay. It was a very wonderful sight to see for a lovely night like last Saturday. I had fun. Hehe. Then coz everyone got too hungry we hurried off to Marina Square and ate at the foodcourt there. And coz of the NDP crowd, it was packed and hardly had any empty seats that stayed empty for more than 3 mins. Luckily we had seats outside the foodcourt. I'm just glad that it wasnt humid and hot out.

Then we sat by Esplanade and took pictures with boyfie's camera, left at 1045pm and head off for home. And then, of course, Sunday was spent at work. Woke up early without feeling too sleepy and drained, came to work peachy and smiling, hugging and air-kissing people i see and making sure i wouldn't ruin my rep at work. At least not many people confronted me on what happened last 2 Saturdays, which was good for me since it won't be affecting anything. I actually had a pleasant time at work and i was walking around smiling like the world is filled with super-soft candy. HAHAHA. Then i met boyfie after work and he escorted me all the way home. Sigh..

Finally, a lovely weekend. :)

Oh and here are some of the pictures i took during the performance. I didn't take other bands' performance so it's very very little. And should i say very amateurish.

Enjoy though! :D

The groupies. HAHAHA. Nah, we were there to support the boys.PS: I swear i can't rmbr the names :S but the one on the extreme right is Iqa ;)

The guys :DFrom Left: Ariff (guitar/vocalist), Sai Jo (drummer), Faris "boyfie" (guitarist/vocalist):D ahhh my heart's filled with pride. LOL

They were amazing on stage. :)

It might seem empty but behind me was a huge crowd. Coz everyone else was afraid that if they stood in the middle they might get kicked or trampled on by other people, unbothered by the performances, that are trying to get into Cineleisure. HAHAH

Another angle. The small dude on the extreme left by the white pillar is part of the production crew. Not a nice-looking dude. Looked pissed the whole time. -.-'''

Me and Iqa :)

Iqa wearing one of the boys' friend's hat. I liked the hat.
[Fin]
Sorry for the lengthy, wordy post but i dont have much pictures to post. Unless i steal them from boyfie's memory card, which would be good. LOL. Anyways, August is here and fasting month is coming on the 22nd! To all my Muslim friends, be prepared :)
Take care and God Bless
XOXO!

lemme hold your hand, love

2009-07-24T16:27:00.003+08:00

Picture Pick-Up: Mad About Holdin' Dem Hand Of Yours

Courtesy of Photobucket.com

Strength of many

Binds everyone together

Keeps us warm

Keeps us happy and sane

With friends, or with loved ones

The contact of skin to skin gives a fluttery feeling

Rebellious or not

Even in infancy we wish to touch the ones we love

To provide the sense of comfort and protection

So we could shadow each other's footsteps

And watch the sunset together

Forever.

Thank you, everyone, to whomever who had touched my life and my hand :)
[Fin]
Simple post. No direction intended. OK, it's coz Tassh was posting beside me, too, so i thought i'd post as well. And when i visited PB i saw a picture of holding hands and i thought it was sweet. Reminds me of the times i held hands with boyfie. :) Ahh, sweet memories. Hehe.
TGIF, people! Thank God for that. LOL
Oh, i won't be around on Saturday and Sunday. Saturday afternoon shall be spent watching boyfie's performance just outside Cathay Cineleisure. He invited me over since it's a free gig and it's also coz i'm not working tomorrow. :D
Sunday, however, i will be working. 10am-10pm. Gawd, i'll be so beat on Monday it's not even entirely funny. Not even a little bit. I'm hoping it'll be a good Sunday, so i won't go crazy again like i did last Saturday... Woops, wasn't planning to say a thing about that. LOLz.. Too late.
Anyways, take care and God bless y'all! To Nigel and my dear sweet Ming Sheng, thanks for helping us touch-up our codes. Bless your kind patient soul. :)
Enjoy your weekends!
XOXO!

thus He bestowed me a test

2009-07-23T12:56:00.006+08:00

Apparently God is trying to test me.

I've been going through some unlikely situations, so surprising and shocking that it got me shaken and crying. Maybe He wants me to get tougher when similar times like these comes again. But i think it got me feeling just as worst as any other normal day. it makes no difference really, but it does make me see things in another perspective. Mom was being supportive, and when she saw me crying she tried her best to make me learn something instead of despise the luck i've been getting, or the people involved. Mom being Mom. :)

Anyway, i'm not being mad at whatever it is that made me so unlucky like this but i'm holding up good. I've been talking it out with people closest to me, well mostly to Mom, of course. To boyfie as well, and eventho it wasnt a typical boyfriend-cheering-up method he used, he talked and joked with me in hopes i would forget what had happened these past few days. he was very sweet, and we even arranged to meet yesterday night. we hung out under one of the old neighbourhood blocks and just chattered away about stuffs. heh.

Warning: You can read whatever's below this, but it's specifically to 2 special people in my life, and you're not them ignore what's going on there, all right?

To Friend #1: whatever it is you are going through please talk it out with me. that night was a total shocker to me and i dont get why i felt hurt, somehow. it was the first time, i guess, that you've ever done that to me. i was so ready to see you but you chucked me away and expect me to understand what you're going through. i can't read what was between the lines because you never gave me a clear-cut reason why you did what you did. it saddened me so badly that i couldn't comprehend anything else.

i tried to reason, but an explanation right from your pretty lips will definitely fix everything else that's going on in my head. I'm telling you to talk to me, to not avoid me, and not to hate me. if i've angered you, tell me too, please. I wish to know what's going on in your head, if not in your life. Whatever it is, tell me. I'm ready to hear it.

I miss you, my dearest friend. you may think it was nothing that you did, it didn't hurt anyone, but apparently it hurt me. and i'm not gonna assume or accuse you until you tell me what's wrong. come to me and tell me.

To Friend #2: i've given you 1001 advices, tried to reason with you 1001 times, and told you lots of scenarios so you could open your eyes and see the bigger, bigger picture. i do not blame you for being blinded and constantly in denial of her actions and justifications, but please understand that you're no longer yourself and you're not in the best of shape. this is not the time in your life where you mull over the smallest of things like hormones and love. you are in school, you are studying for a diploma, and you cannot mess this opportunity up. you have so many other things to think about, but here you are reminiscing those beautiful moments you had with her, hoping and wishing that she would look over her shoulder and smile into your face like it was the brightest star in your darkest skies.

you gotta understand that her reasons and promises are just an excuse to keep on playing with your mind and heart. it doesn't show she's trying to protect your heart at all. it doesn't help you with anything at all. look at yourself now, and think about your soul that's cracking second by second. why be sad when she's happy all by herself, flitting around guys - victims of her next charade? you do not deserve this. you deserve so much better than the bullshit she's tossing at you. be tough, show everyone that you can stand straight even though she's doing this to you. show to the other guys that you're not weak, that you can withstand all the pain she's put you through. show everyone that you're so much stronger than you've ever been. i'm not telling you to pretend. i'm telling you to nose up, back straight, shoulders back and strong. stand tall and proud and ignore the bullcrap that's happening around you. you're a young man, and your strength will be the most appealing asset a dashing man like yourself can use to his advantage. trust me.

i care about you and i'm concerned about your life right now. i see you, into your eyes, and i can tell you feel like bawling blood into your hands. you can cry as much as you want, but the longer you cry the harder it is to move on, and the more pain will always burden your shoulders. pray, ask God for strength to move on, for guidance, for a way to help you ease your pain. I'm sure He will give you some way to smile one day, to find some light in your life, and to give you an amazing companion in your bright future. :)

[Fin]

OK, enough of reading my notes to my friends. but sadly enough i'm in no mood to post pictures today. i'm just glad i finally wrote a post that's filled with thoughts. i like reading people's thoughts coz even tho you dont know them that well, that personally, you may know them just a little bit through their thoughts written in blog posts. :)

All right, i be done here!

Take care and God Bless!

XOXO!

Upsetting

2009-07-20T13:41:00.003+08:00

Picture Pick-Up: I'm Just Plain Mad About 'Em

Courtesy of WeHeartIt.com

Oh, how saddened i am they are no longer together.. :(

Sexy ;)

Total cuteness!

Moulin Rouge; the best romantic movie hands down!

Genius
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-Cam-whoring in lab-

Tassh catching up with her usual mates on MSN

And then here i come bugging her to no end :D

See that oddly-looking thing she's holding? With that crooked end? That's what used to be the stick of a lollipop. o.o..

Seemingly shocked.
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Current status in school: Utter crunch-time.
We've got less than 5 weeks til we're to hand the project up for judging and grading. And not to mention me having quite the emotional weekend which i did not see coming. Apparently, the day boyfie was unable to fetch me from work, is the very day God bestowed upon me a very disheartening event. Sigh.. It totally stripped motivation from me and i lost so much heart when i was working. I kept texting boyfie so he could cheer me up, which he did, but i prayed to God to make him see me or vice versa - coz i've never wanted to see him so much like how i did that Saturday night. He thought i was upset with him, but i'm not obliged to do such a thing.
So the whole matter replayed in my head the whole of Saturday night until Sunday afternoon. I totally, completely lost my mood, and drove like a zombie. I felt nothing - practically numb inside. Then boyfie texted me that evening and immediately asked if i'm all right. I told him the truth and said i was still upset. And throughout the night we texted until i ended up laughing to myself. Heh, he gots amazing powers like that :)
Anyways, the end of July is near, and the fasting month is coming soon! Shall put work on temporary hold - for like 1 mth and few weeks prolly, and then get back to work :D
Take care y'all and God Bless!
XOXO!

hear my prayer

2009-07-19T01:04:00.001+08:00

Oh, God..

I miss him,

so,

so badly,

i cry at the very thought of him,

the very essence of him warms me up.

Oh, God..

I want him home..